be mindful

i remembered to eat the tangerine. not to think about problems, not to think about work. just to sit and eat and think about the tangerine and taste it.

it was the best tangerine i have had in ages.

What I do is I try not to think too much. The great thing about life is that there are always dishes to be washed, sheets to be pressed and dissertation to be written… hahahha… it’s really therapeutic. Really!!

yeah, this one aint going so well, right now.

So, I have read on mindfulness sometimes. Lately though I dont function very well because of the paralysis of analysis. I think and I think and I think. Then I do nothing.

So this goal has drastically moved up on my list. Because I want to actually eat a tangerine. I want to actually wash my dishes rather than overthink, overanalyze every other situation in my life.

So here is to actually washing the dishes, cleaning the toilet, being there when my car breaks down. Heres to being completely in every moment rather than partially everywhere.

rosh hashanah began a few days ago. im not jewish, but im a magpie for meaning (i appropiate hibabs, holidays, symbols, from any culture and try to live them in my own personal manner), if that makes any sense.

holidays have such a deep, embedded cultural meaning to them and it reflects a whole sub-cultures or cultures values in one day. everyone tends to reflect on thankfulness on thanksgiving, love on valentines day, beginnings on new years etc. i “married myself” on valentines day out of self love. i begin gratitiude diaries on thanksgiving. on palm sunday i burn my letters to god up and release everything from the last year. certain days make changes seem easier to me.

so i missed the first couple of days, but i want meditate on my life and practice forgiving myself and others until yom kippur comes. i want to fast from the internet, media, and anything else that i deem unhealthy for me at the moment. i want to spend time with those i love, take care of myself, and be very quiet. i want these wind-waved sounds to bring me to more mindfulness. i want to appreciate. appreciate. appreaciate. the moment, the season of change, and my own season of change.

yeah, i do that from time to time