I sort of abandoned 43thing, it became a constant testimonial to my apathy and boredome, but a lot has changed since I left. I am no longer a drunk…I have been sober for 3 months, and I am at the top of my classing in nursing school. I still don’t have much to my life but school, but I plan to start working on my list again.
Yes thats right folks, I am going on 48 crazy, sober hours.
Things I have discovered while sober:
1. I have a cat, whoda thunk!
2. My car has absolutely no oil in it, its the miracle car, its runs on hugs and McDonalds wrapers.
3. I have taken naked pictures of my self on my camera phone, lets hope I sent them to my pastor!
4. I dont have to smell bad all the time.
5. I dont even like smoking, why the hell do I do it?
Anyway, I am making no promises, but I feel, good….really good.
The support I have gotten from you folks has been amazing. I am just going to take it hour by hour, and right now…I am not drinking, and thats a good thing!
Well, this is a mess, I made it about 48 hours.
I smell rehab, maybe I wont drop out this time. Its funny, you never see life this way. To me alcoholism was Bailey on Party of Five, I was trained to understand the trials of life trough representations of them. To really feel something, something that makes me feel completely out of control, is so odd.
Its bigger…...AND smaller than they make it seem. I am a mess.
It has to stop now.
Thank you for you comments, sorry I let you down.
This is the first time I have gone 24 hours without drinking in at least a year.
I feel like someone opened me up and filled me with cat shit, but hey….at least I can function.
This is quite a bit harder than you would think, but I cant imagine what being drunk everyday does to my body.
In reality, if I dont do this, I wont do anything else on my list.