Love without fear

I can honestly say I have given myself to love without fear for about 2 seconds…. Then I was scared shitless and I loss my balls to do what I had to do…. Maybe next time

I would have said about 2 months ago I did indeed love without fear. That is not true, I did indeed love but as of my fear… It was wit me everyday untill the end of our time together. I can see the chance coming my way again after some time alone but in true nature I live this part of life in fear and still push towards my goal…

It spins around my head daily, hourly, and yes even by the minute,

Jumping around without a care in the world,

I try everything I can to stop it,

Pick up the phone to pass the time,

Spinning and spinning,

I want to tell you so badly!!!

Can you read it in my eyes,

Can you feel it in my soul,

The deeds we’ve done have spoken it a thousand times,

But still…

I lay here,

Without a word to say,

Your eyes begging for the words,

As if programed….

I close my eyes,

Shake in some kind of fear,

Turn over and fall to sleep,

Always…

Spinning and jumping