be a better boyfriend

i dont want to fuck up… I have the greatest girl anyone could ask for and though i know this i do not show it enough… weve been dating for about a year now… well actually a year lol… we havent had sex… nor has she come over once lol but thats all cool lol… but i fucked up so bad with her… wow… i made so many mistakes… we are in love… but lately it seems like she isnt that into me… or us… and i blame it mainly on me not being there enough for her… shes my fucking life… and all i do is dream about her… i wake up early every morning and look at a picture of her for an hour or so… she may not seem to eb a perfect match to me… but she’s an angel in disguise… she is my whole world… and i want to be a better boyfriend to her… i want her to trust me again… i want her to know so badly that im doing everything i can to make her life easier… her life isnt that easy to begin with… she self injurs and i have bulimia… but i wont give up on her ever… i will fuck it lol… i just have to be a better boyfriend to her… she is my life, and my stars… she’s my Arsqueaka… and i’ll do anything to see her oh so cute nose crinkle when she smiles… i love my Arsqueaka!