quit smoking for good

I’m marking this as “done” today. I’ve kicked the habit and the obsession too. I’d like to think I’ll never smoke again, but I can’t realistically say that. No one can. I feel confident that my addiction has been broken, but who knows what the future holds? Perhaps this goal will turn up on my list again someday, but right now I can finally say that I’m doing okay.

Whoops, I seem to have gotten a bit lost on this goal. I was doing SO WELL, I wasn’t even thinking about smoking. And then October came and my breakup happened and I simply stopped caring. I care now. I should read the book again for inspiration. Did you know that Alan Carr died recently from lung cancer even though he quit years and years ago with the Easy Way method which he established? That’s really scary, and smoking related death runs in my family.

After reading that book, I would be very suprised if I were to ever smoke again.

I have totally changed my thinking around to where I do not see stopping smoking as missing out on something.

I made it through a party without smoking. I even drank a little, which is usually when I light up, but this time I abstained completely. Yay!

Read this book, it actually works:
Allen Carr’s Easyway to Stop Smoking

Two weeks and counting. I feel great. Every time I’ve attempted quitting before I get terribly sick due to all the crap coming out of my lungs. This time isn’t like that for some reason. Perhaps it’s because I only started up again for a few months, and didn’t cause too much damage in there.

It’s so nice to be able to run again without getting so winded!

Oh oh oh and my bag is packed with gum for when I go out. Oral fixation, ya know.

I’ve made it through 10 days so far.

I think it’s time to do a super cleaning of my car to attempt to get that awful smell out. My roommate borrowed my car and smoked in it even though I specifically asked him not to, but you can’t really tell since I haven’t cleaned it out yet. Must add that to the list of things to do this week.

You know, this would be a lot easier if my roommate would stop smoking in the house. I can’t just be like, “Hey dude, could you take it outside?” because it’s HIS house. It’s funny how grossed out I am by the smell of it permeating through my door now that I’m not puffing away with him. I’ve been going through A LOT of incense, that’s for damn sure.

It just seems so unfair that I’m quitting, but my clothes are still smelling like smoke anyways just from being inside our place. I can’t win!

How long do I have to go before I can really say I’ve quit for good? I went 9 months last time without a cigarette and I was convinced then that I’d changed forever. Now I just don’t trust myself. I guess a year with no cheating would be a good start.

Day Two…here I come.