Today Ive been quite negative with myself.
I felt really down and exahusted -especially in the afternoon.
I was considering suicide and I also binge ate in the afternoon.
Its ok, just need to pick up myself up again.
I think I need to introduce regular breaks within my working hours and then I will feel less propelled to be negative and feel more wholesome and caring towards myself.
I also need to accept, thats its ok for things to go wrong and just remember that plpl like Lu and Shibs, managed to get 1st and 2:1s and they are super skinny and doing superwell. So I can do it, i just need to be persistent and not give up.
Need to also watch what I say and think before i say stuff
Mar 26, 03:17PM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
Today i was quite negative, its terrible, i bitch and the thing is someone around the corner could be listening and news travels fast and then youve got backfire.
i really need to watch myself.
worse thing is i always bitch about plpl i care and then i feel bad.
so,
strategy
only bitch through email/fb.
and need to think a lot more b4 i say
Right,
to quote domesticatedwifey :
“The more you gossip, talk negatively with other people and talk negatively about things, the more negative you become. If you surround yourself with positive people you can really feel better. Though I might be negative about this or that, I don’t feel that I’m negative about everything anymore. You need to only “vent” to the people you know you can trust, usually that’s only 1 person that is not involved in whatever may make you feel negative, I say choose a family member, significant other or friend that you’ve known for years.”
Im going to try this, i bitch about plpl, life and my self at uni. Im going to try and only vent at 1 person -my best friend from school. I think I will do this through facebook. I will also try other plpl -my bro and my mum, although my best friend J is the best really as she’s the most open. I will try and message her whenever I feel completely rockbottom. I guess the samaritans are good too when feeling in state of desperation and absolute negativity. I might also blog some of my thoughts here, as a way of venting
Mar 24, 01:39PM PDT | 0 comments
