be happy

Not very happy at the moment. Stumbled upon various websites about various topics that I found/find extremely depressing. And then I realised that listening to Death Cab for Cutie songs wasn’t exactly cheering, so I changed my music – now listening to Crazy Town’s Butterfly, which always makes me smile. sigh. Tired. I’m looking forward to going to bed.

Unhappy. Very unhappy. No…that’s not it exactly. Melancholy? Perhaps. Not exactly upset, not exactly sad, just very miserable. Numb, almost…but no, not quite.

Thousands of thoughts. So much I want to say. Wish I could vent. But I can’t – not here, not on my blog, not to a single fricking person. Even saying that was probably too much.

It’s nothing personal. Just can’t.

Kind of emotionless at the moment. Y’know, tired but content, sorta uncaring about everything. Which is bad, cus I should be stressing about school work. But I couldn’t care less…about anything dreamy smile

It’s funny…last year was fairly crap, and I wasn’t happy much of the time. But then somehow, this year has been different. I don’t know why – nothing’s changed from last year except that I have more schoolwork. And yet, I’m happier than I’ve been for a while. It’s a nice feeling :)

So far, so good.