learn to love myself

I have moments where i think I’m ok. I also have a long list of self criticisms and I am prone to depression when i remember the list. :P Like … i will always be a bit overweight. I have a poor memory and am frequently forgetful. I also think slowly. i talk too much. I can be bossy. I am a little messy. I am boring. I think about all these things and some things I can improve and some things I think I just have to accept. I dont know how to accept my flaws. I guess that’s the real problem. I see other people who are super confident despite obvious flaws and Im a litte envious … how do people get so confident???

For whatever reason I am made up in such a way that I feel better about myself when I have the approval of others. And, you know, this is really not working for me but I don;t know how to change it. It’s automatic/subconscious/deeply ingrained. But it’s also confusing, I mean some people say I am smart/beautiful/good/nice and then others say differently. So it’s really confusing at best. I am trying to be objective about myself really, but I swear I am more critical than anyone i know. How do feel good about yourself when yourself is very critical???