be kinder to myself

Right now I’m working on being aware of the commentary in my brain as i go through daily life. I’ve found that I’m not very nice to myself and I tend to take things and make them bigger than they need to be. My strategy as of right now is to, whenever I’m feeling bad, figure out what I’m thinking and either identify the lies or adopt a proactive approach to fixing whatever it is. So far it’s helping me a lot.

I’m actually at the point where I feel okay with myself when I’m not being perfect in my progress towards a goal. For instance, one of my goals is to read the entire Bible. I’ve been busy lately and my daily readings haven’t been happening. What’s absolutely beautiful is that I don’t feel like a failure. Whenever, I make the choice to do the daily reading, that is a good thing and it moves me towards my end goal. Whenever it doesn’t happen, it’s okay. I don’t have a set time when I need to accomplish this. It enriches my life and it doesn’t have to be a pressured thing. This not only helps me be kinder to myself, it actually makes me a more productive person because I don’t have bad feelings about what I’m working on.

I tend to demand that I be things things that I’m not. Like I want to be great at first impressions and dealing with people I don’t know. However, I have kind of an inherited English reserve so i’m nice but I generally don’t shine in first encounters. I had an epiphany yesterday where I think I’m moving toward deciding that that’s simply okay. I don’t need to be everything perfect, I shine in other areas.