not worry about what others think of me

Last night, at college, I remembered a lot about this goal I have on my list for so much time.
A classmate told me about something that happened at Friday class, after I went out ealier to finish the presentation of Saturday.
A guy that I hate so much (after we have a big fight during a college work and some other moments) was talking about me at the class and some friends deffended me, discussing with him. Everybody was against what he was saying about me.
The funny things is, until yesterday, nobody told me anything about it, as it didn’t happened. I just know through someone who was watching it and thought it was so good to see something being deffended by her friends and the friends din’t told her about it, because the stupid guy isn’t really important.
At the first moment, my desire was to discuss with the stupid guy (at the time, he was near me). But I stopped and think that what he thinks about me never mattered. I have to see the good side of the story: I have wonderful friends. I felt so loved and in clouds :)

It’s weird when you see sometimes your dreams aren’t the best for you. Even when everybody thinks you are living a dream and the best a person can have. It was hard, but I made a decision of giving up. Sometimes it’s the best to be done. It’s better give another step, run to another path than waste energy in something that can be a wrong thing. And it’s hard to see if it’s the case or it’s just a hard way that you have to keep fighting. But, ok, I wasn’t happy, I made a decision, I’m ok if I have to hear people’s options when everybody know what happened and I have to go on. The good news is that will be faster than I could imagine. Great news are already coming and I’m sure I’ll forget the bad moments.

How I would like to be indifferent to what people tell to me at work. I would be so much happy. I’d do what I have to do, do the things I choose and get the consequences. But these consequences is hear many arrogant, annoying and rude words and sometimes I can’t handle with it. I’m trying to keep until the end. I can save more money, get some things I want for so long time and be ok with my mandatory hours in college. One day at a time!!!

I know I am learning all the stuff, but sometimes I think the people are so hard with me. I am sure they will be harder as the days are passing and my responsabilities are increasing. I joined there knowing it and I do not expect anything different. The issue is I have to be used with it. Do not let the comments affect me in a bad way. I am a beginner and of course I do not know everything, maybe the comments is a way to help me or a way they have to have fun with the person that are lost with so much information.