Live for the moment.

Im going to end my me against the world menatlity and except that people are people and take them for what they are. I guess it stems from childhood, how badly I was treated by my peers, cuase I was different, but I guess I have to put that behind now and not project it on to people in the real world.

Who every you want to be, whatever you want to do, where every you want to go but always remember you have one life that when it is through it is through forever.

Im behind. Im time, in rent, in life, I hate it. Everytime I move forwaed I take 10 steps back. It’s so fucked right now. I’ve just got to concentrate on what matters most right now.

Now that I’m 20 I’ve given permission to be an adult, and take responsibility for my life and who I’am. I not going to one of those people that when something bad happens blame it on somethings cuase we always have a choice how to react. And like they say, it’s your funeral.

I’ve come to the relization to stop seen things as a means to a end. Like im going to do this to get this. I just want to do it for what it’s worth and not count on a finally outcome. Just for the experince and when that experience is no longer needed then I’ll move on. The world does not revolve around me and all outcomes are uncertain but it helps to try and accomplish a goal.

Im 20 now and am starting to take things more seriously.
Like wake up at a certain time
Hold down a stable job
Study to scedule
Keep a budget