Lose 45 pounds

I am very obsessed with my weight loss.
I have started taking Phentermine and Water Pills. I dont think this is safe but I didnt think of that when I took it.
Phentermine elevates your blood pressure and gives me the shakes and the Water Pill lowers your blood pressure. I normally have low blood pressure and I sure hope it doesnt drop any lower. Maybe the two pills will counter act one another. I only took in a total of 800 calories today.

I am not proud of this… I think I need to think things thru . i may have a problem.

I am obsessing which is fueling a borderline eating disorder.

Time to chill out. Once you make a “FASTING PLAN” and drink natural fruit juice all day, its time to stop and think things thru.

That diet is a monster. I think it was worse than the master cleanse.

Okay…. you will have GAS and you wont be able to be discreet about it. My stomach churned and ached and when i did allow “a slip” I cleared the entire bus stop.

Thank God my car was stolen otherwise there would of been a police investigation of a black female dead for unknown causes. there was no way I could of kept my windows up and smelled the cabby gas.

THIS DIET STINKS> and i am off it and over it!

I was supposed to do all fruits on day one.

I didnt.

Anyone who reads my entries ought to know by now that I dont follow directions. LOL

So I did all veggies on day one because I thought that would be the most difficult day and i wanted to get past it. SO far I have lost ONE pound.

I ate lots of lettuce (4 plates of salad), one grilled potato with VERY little butter but some seasoning on it. 32oz of cabbage soup and 42oz of water. I know I really messed up on my water intake but I was urinating all day long off of the soup alone! However, my urine wasnt clear which lets me know that my body is holding a lot of water right now.

Today for breakfast I had one quarter of a mango (mango’s are fattening), seven grapes, half a kiwi, three small strawberries, half of a fresh pineapple ring, one cantaloupe wedge.

I am STUFFED. Now I will top it all off with H2O and for the rest of the day until I get home, i will survive on soup.

Update on MONDAY!

Okay folks… I did the master cleanse for six days and lost nine pounds that I have miraculously kept off since September 8th when I did it. So much for the myths of it being water weight that comes back on.
Now I shall embark on the cabbage diet. I made the soup and got drinking this morning. It was delicious to say the least. I didnt make it the way I was instructed nor did I put ingredients I didnt want.
I am the kind of cook who doesnt do well measuring so I cant tell you how much I put in there, but I can tell you whats in my soup:
1/2 head of cabbage
one fresh tomato
Broccoli
Cauliflower
Spinach
Carrots
One Green bell Pepper
One LARGE ( I mean genetically engineered) onion
Four cloves of garlic
Baby Portabella Mushrooms

Okay, So I chopped everything up except the broccoli and cauliflower florets. Then I heated up the HUGE pot for about 5 min on a med fire. Then I added some cooking oil (use olive, its less fattening) Let that get really hot and then add a little bit of sugar (two teaspoons) Wait for the sugar to bubble and turn brown.
Once it looks like brown oil bubble in the pot, add your veggies.
You should hear a loud sizzling sound and maybe even see some smoke.
add desired seasonings (mines were: cayenne pepper, Ms. Dash chipotle seasoning, one packet of soy sauce, paprika, seasoning salt, half a can of chicken broth, herb garlic (mccormick) seasoning)
I let them all stew on a low fire until they were simmering in their own juices.
Then I added water to make it more soupy.
Then I let it simmer more to take in all of teh seasonings.
THEN I CHOWED DOWN!
If you know your way around the kitchen this soup isnt nearly as horrible as many claim.
I did this back when I was a teen and I didnt know how to cook worth a damn so I just followed the generic directions and couldnt stomach the soup after two days. This time I am sure to last longer because I have some soup that I want to have seconds with!
Updates soon to come. I plan on losing 10lbs minimum on this diet.

So… I quit the cleanse on Sunday. I did six days.
I have lost 9 pounds.
I havent put on a pound since I quit because I eat only two meals per day and they are healthy.
once in a blue I might do a bagel with light butter but other than that, it is veggies, veggies and more veggies. I will do the cleanse for another five days next week to lose the twenty total pounds that I am striving for. Would I recommend this to someone who wants to lose the weight? YES. However, know your limits. For me, all I would of done if I went cold turkey was crave until I caved and ate all of the wrong things.
I still lost almost ten pounds in five days and that encourages me to continue.
So next week, let the fasting BEGIN!

Okay… I am feeling a heck of a lot better than day three. Day three was absolutely horrid. The blisters on my nostril are no longer oozing but just crusty scabs. Gross, but I am revealing myself here. I had a small BM yesterday and I had another one today. I honestly think its the veggies but one can never be too sure. I lost one pound yesterday which was a step toward my goal. I have lost a total of 9 pounds in the five days I have been doing this.
I am ready to eat mentally but physically I can’t do it. Everytime I think of putting food in mouth I feel soooo ready and when it comes to the moment, I lose interest. Its disturbing. I say I want a cheeseburger and then I see one face to face and it looks like crap to me. The smell isnt even that great. Actually, it smells gross. I think that I will keep eating my broccoli florets. I have noticed that I am on a major veggie kick. I want to eat all the veggies… no meat.
I know that I havent followed the rules to a T but everything isnt for everyone. I am still losing weight rapidly and loving every moment of it.
so, you can do this and drink an ocassional cup of Joe with no additives and some LIGHT raw veggies.
I dont know how I am going to make it to day 10.

I still have a stuffy nose and I am still have a swollen nostril from the blisters. Today I didnt even fool around. I had a cup of coffee to ease my congestion. I dont even have the urge to eat because I felt awful last night after the tiny amount I DID eat. My stomach felt really full. Now I know how anorexics psyche themselves out to eat a corn chip and feel like it was Thanksgiving dinner. No, I am not making fun of anorexics, I just have a way with words I guess.
anyhow… I thought that my detour from spilem (thats my new word for the spicy lemonade) I wouldnt have lost anything but low and behold this morning I am down to 195.2.
Cool beans. Considered me encouraged.

I had six ziti noodles that were coated with cheese and spaghetti sauce. i cheated.
I cheated myself… but alas…tomorrow is another day. I had no BM today… maybe the ziti will help.
weighed myself… still 197. Tomorrow will truly tell the tale of whether or not I suceeded more than I failed today. I hope I lose at least one pound to give me encouragement because if I dont, I have a casserole dish full of ziti that I made in the fridge.
I hate the fact that I have to cook. It makes it more tempting. I made parmesan crusted talapia with mushroom cream sauce topping, baked ziti, and steamed veggies. oh, and of course my signature spicy a$$ “lemonade”

i am VERY tired today. today really sucked. I had never been more tempted.

good night.

Okay, my sinuses are all clogged up. I know its allergy season but this stinks. I am whining. I cant stand today. If there was ever a day that I wanted to give it all up I think that today would be the day. Most people who are this hungry are usually this hungry because they have no other choice. Not because they are doing it on purpose. I cant believe I psyched myself up for this. However, thru all of the crying and whining about it I think that I am going to stick with it. After three days of no eating and six pounds, there is no reason to stop now. I will be a heck of a lot happier when Wednesday is here. that will be my day 10 on the cleanse. as far as emissions go… i havent had one today. I only had one on Monday and on Tuesday. Then again, what is there to get rid off when I dont take the laxative and I dont do the salt water?