save my marriage

I decided to let go of what I thought marriage was to be and embrace my own. I am not abused, I am loved and sometimes misunderstood. When or if its ever time to abandon my vows… I will consider it seriously and only within good reason.

So, I love him. I love my husband. With every flaw, and every peeve, I never stop loving him.

So when I want to leave him and when I glance at another man one second too long, or have an irrational thought, I need to remember that i DO love this man. What would be the point of causing all this static between us when at the end of the day I still love him like I love no other man?

I need to learn how to walk in that love instead of constantly questioning it.

On October 3rd, 2007 at 8:15pm, my father in laws spirit left this earth. When I went to view his body and the permanence of death suddenly became more apparent to me than it ever had. He was a GREAT Grandfather, and a peacemaker. He will be missed by many.

When I seen my mother in law sobbing at the loss of her husband, her friend, her love… I began to feel foolish and embarrased at how many things I blow out of proportion in my own marriage. In the blink of an eye, God takes your spirit and leaves all your loved ones behind.

I dont want there to ever be a day that I dont enjoy my husband. Despite all of the things he does, I love him and I need to demonstrate that more often.