Stop emotional eating

I most likely will never do the cleanse again. However, lately I certainly DO NOT eat just because. i have been taking appetite suppressant pills and water pills. They really help me lose intrest in the food. I am hoping I can adopt the habit after about a month of taking them. I know this isnt safe, but being thin means the world to me.

i have had some really great support here and I thank everyone.

I am doing ten times better by checking my portions and controlling urges. Fruit is so sweet and filling that even if I have a chocolate, I cant bear more than two bites. I know I sound like an informercial for some product but the product I am pushing is good ole natural discipline!

I am eating grapes (about twelve) two medium sized strawberries, one boiled egg and a pineapple wedge.
plus, i am having a cup of coffee. for lunch I will have veggies. this will be my daily routine until I am thin. I need to go strict so that I wont fall back into the same habits. I have a natural fruit juice concoction to hold me over for the rest of the day, i will be excercising and drinking two liters of water.

I eat when i am hungry. I eat when i am not hungry. I eat until I am so full that to take another bite would hurt. I crave fatty foods. The oilier the more appealing. i like sweet foods. I love pastries. I cant keep weight off. in one weekend I gained FIVE pounds. FIVE pounds in one weekend. I eat when i am depressed. i eat when I am nervous. I eat when I am bored. Who says that I dont have an eating disorder? Starving yourself to be thin isnt the only type of eating disorder there is. I need to gain control over this. I need help. I need a support group or a coach. This is getting to be too hard. i have starved myself to be thinner and one binge session can throw it all away. Where in the world do I go from here?