let it go

i am still so angry at him… for everything he’s done… everything he’s said… all the lies i believed…

i don’t want to be angry anymore… i just want to let the anger go… i don’t want to be like this anymore…

i don’t really care if we remain friends or not… i just don’t want this anymore

im slightly over it… only slightly… hmm…

i don’t miss him as much as i did a week ago… i don’t hurt as much as i did a week ago

thats a good thing… right?!!

why did i do that for? did i really care if he had a good weekend or not?

i brought this upon myself… i should’ve known better…

well i think he is anyways…

im feeling a bit blah :(

Have you ever driven a car with the parking brake still on? It is just about possible to make progress but it is neither advisable nor safe to proceed in this way. One part of you is now raring to go. Another is dragging its heels. These mutually-exclusive urges must be reconciled, to prevent lasting damage to your inner psychological braking system.Should you stay or should you go? Well, actually, the decision is academic. You are rolling forward, fast. Stop trying to stop yourself.

a bit sad this morning… i thought the week gone by would be tough, thinking about it, i think the week to come will be alot harder :(

to see photos of him having fun, i just know it’ll crush me… and even though i know i SHOULDN’T even look at his photos, i know myself better than that and i won’t be able to help it

why??? ugh

im just wondering… does he miss me?

i don’t think i miss him all that much… i miss talking to someone, not necessarily him… could it be… its just the company i miss… not the person?

he’s gone away for the weekend, its a good time for both of us to re-asses and keep away from each other

i’ve gone over 40hours without talking to him… i did send him a short facebook msg to have fun… but i didn’t respond to his reply… infact i even deleted it… :\

“Change is a door that can only be opened from the inside.”
- Terry Neil