be less selfish

my sister screamed, “you are the most selfish person ever”

whether or not it was just said out of anger(which more than likely it was because she wasnt getting her way) but it still cut through me like a chill on a cold winter day. it was very unsettling and i thought to myself..hmm i am pretty selfish these days..maybe shes got a point. ive justifed so many of the selfish things ive done/said/thought..”thats how i am grieving”, “im in a bad place”, “they deserved it” etc. etc. the list could go on with ways ive justified things.

i dont want to be selfish..i really dont. thats not me.

to work on this big time.
ive become quite the selfish person lately.
and i hate it.
but its so hard to snap out of it.

suggestions?

one way that i am very selfish i realized today is in my friendships. especially in one area..i expect people to call me and talk to me first. its awful. i rarely ever pick up the phone to call my friends. but i feel insignificant if they dont call me. friendship goes both ways..i need to remember this..so one way i can stop being so selfish is to start calling my friends and make it a two way thing. they shouldnt have to put forth all the effort.

i’m being selfish..

i need to be happy for a friend. even if the reason to be happy for them has a negative impact on me.

any suggestions?