Commit - to somebody, to love, to life, to myself

Just realized the other day that I am scared to commit to things / people / even country where to settle for good because I don’t know whether I’ll get what I need / be able to set up an environment I’ll be ok and content in.

Am back to identifying and adressing them…

I need to be present to what is happening to me. I’ll have some time off now where I’ll have nothing else but take it easy and slow. I need to commit to myself and what I need, commit to getting better. And reach out to other people when I need it – stop stopping myself for contact.

There is something about commiting to the moment, which is the hardest things – engaging with, rather than dis-engaging, with what is around even, and especially, if it is not where I’d like to be in, doing, etc…