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Worth the Amoebic Dysentery 1 year ago

I just got back from spending 3 weeks at Sarah Institute in Dharamsala, India, and a few days in Delhi, Bangkok, and Hua Hin, Thailand.

It was worth the dysentery that kept me out of classes and travel for a week; it was worth being stuck in LA with no money and no clean clothes for two days on the way back.

I have changed so much, and discovered that I am a much stronger person than I thought I was, and I can do anything I set my mind to.

It’s so strange to be home, though, especially since my kitty (who was 14 years old and having a lot of problems before I left) died while I was away.

Studying abroad is something that everyone should do. It put me another $8,000 in debt, but it was priceless.



It has arrived! 1 year ago

I really expected to get it this Friday, but it arrived this morning. I was still rubbing the sleep out of my eyes when I signed for it.

And two hours later, it was gone again. My professor had mailed all of the passports to get visas yesterday, but had forgotten one, and was sending it today. Now, he has mine to send with it as well. :)

When I said how strange it was and how I didn’t get it, he looked at me and smiled. “Don’t question it.”

Now I get to start packing. Oh lord. I have never packed for such a trip before… or packed for a plane flight, and I have all my medical supplies and toys for the children’s village to pack as well as my own stuff!



Where, oh where, is my passport??? 1 year ago

My flight leaves at 9:30 am, June 1st.

I have no passport. I have no visa.

The people at the National Passport Information Center have been absolutely zero help when I get through to them on the phone. The only time I can get through is at 6 in the morning.

I asked them several weeks ago to expedite my passport, as I need it for a visa, but they did nothing.

A few days ago I called again and they informed me of this, and told me “Don’t worry, we’re putting a note on your file, call again in a few days.”

I also had to change the address it is being mailed to because I no longer live there. They don’t forward passports.

I called the office of my district representative and they were the most helpful people I’ve talked to concerning this whole deal.

My main goals at this point are to call the NPIC and make sure they registered my change-of-address, and call my district rep’s office and see what they can do. I’ll be lucky if I get my passport by next Friday, the absolute latest date I can get my passport and get a visa in time for my trip.

... Maybe in time for my trip. It’s still quite possible that that is too late. Luckily, there is a professor staying a few days behind, in case someone misses a flight or, in my case, doesn’t have a visa, so there will be a chance that I can still make the trip if my visa comes in a day or two late. (Though I worry that I will miss out on a lot of bonding time with the fellow students.)

If I don’t go on this trip, I lose $2600 in airfare, and probably the $2500 in actual class fees, although I will fight the latter until I’m blue in the face. If the only reason why I cannot take the class is because I didn’t get my passport in time, there is no reason why I should have to pay for the stupid class.

I am so unbelievably stressed out. But who knows, maybe even all this stress and frustration will be worth it in the end. One can only hope.



Untitled 1 year ago

Health insurance: applied for.
Hepatitis A and B first shots: done. (Ouch.)

I just need to actually apply for the workshop, send away my loan forms, figure out what the hell is going on with my passport, and get my polio and typhoid shots next week (as well as malaria pills) and I’m almost set with all the crap aspect of the trip.

My professor is dead-set on me going on this trip. He even told me that I was “the coolest and most interesting” person going on the trip and that the other students would benefit from traveling with me.

Really… I think he just wants to see my shave off all my blue and purple hair. And freak out on the first plane ride of my life, which is the 4 1/2 hours to LA and then 14 to Hong Kong. :P



ARGH. 1 year ago

My parents are freaking out about this… still.

I told my mom how much the trip cost, and she replied “Oh… my god” and went silent for a good three minutes.

Keep in mind, I’m paying for this myself, through student loans, and never ONCE asked my parents to help me with anything.

My mom later e-mailed me that “we said we could help you out with your trip, but we meant a few hundred, not a few thousand.”

headpalm

I appreciate the concern and the things my parents will be paying for, but when will they see that I’m an adult and paying for most of this myself??

That said, I’m really excited for this trip. I’m going to get sick on it, probably, but hopefully it’s minor carsickness and nothing too serious. It’ll not only be my first time out of the country, but my first plane flight. (And what a flight it’ll be: some 4 1/2 hours to LA, then 14 to Asia, then another 2… plus something like a 6-hour car/jeep ride…)

The fact that I’m going to be living in a Tibetan monastery is totally cool, and all of the medical supplies I’m bringing with me will be left there for the people, so I’m doing a good deed AND making room for souvenirs.

AND… It’s official that I’m shaving my head.

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There is NO turning back now.



I guess I'm serious about this... 1 year ago

but it has sunk in yet. I guess this is me being torn between panic and excitement, two emotions which can reak havoc if left unchecked.

On one hand, I am not panicking. I am not worrying about my passport not being processed, or financial aid giving me a big “fuck you” like they always have. I am not worrying about flying in an airplane; I am not worrying about not knowing the language. And I most certainly am not worrying about whether or not I should have my legs waxed before I go over there, so I won’t have to worry about shaving them.

On the other, I am not nearly as excited as I should be. I guess this is my pessimistic side. I won’t admit that I worry things will fall apart, but I know, from past experience, that the more excited I get about something, the more disastrously it usually ends up. If I take the fly-by-the-seat-of-my-pants approach and just GO WITH IT, I usually have a blast in the most unexpected of ways.

The sprint course for the trip starts next week, during one of my work shifts, so I sent out a sub e-mail with the subject, “If you don’t take my shift, I won’t be able to shave my head”, which certainly got people’s attention, even if no one has spoken up about taking my shift yet.

“Are you really…?” I nod, and usually people can see me “without hair” although I’m known for my hot pink hair at work (and everywhere else on this campus). I then say that once I shave it, I may grow it out a bit, bleach it all, and then dye it lime green, and this tends to relieve people a touch, as they’re used to seeing me with crazy colored hair.

In addition to going to India in June, I am signing up for Introductory Hindi next semester. I get to be the person I’ve always hated/envied—“Oh yeah, I went to India for a month this summer and it was awesome.”

I never expected India to be the place I was serious about. I studied Buddhism in the eighth grade and considered myself Buddhist for a year, before I moved onto Daoism, and I’ve generally always been entranced with Eastern philosophy, but I never expected that an Asian country (beyond Japan) would be so close.

I always thought I’d go to Ireland, or England, or Prague, or one of those typical English major attractions.

But nope. I’m going to fucking India.



One Step Closer 1 year ago

After much e-mailing, I am finally $250 lighter. I gave one of the professors my deposit for the trip. The first ball is now in place.

I also told my parents about it, who are basically now freaking out about me needing to get shots and not being able to afford it and how poor the Indians are and etc.

Of course, they’re basing their knowledge on other people’s missionary experiences; I will be studying at a university there, not helping people build houses.

Keep your fingers crossed.



Dharamsala, India... June, 2007 1 year ago

When I was little, I had penpals from all over the world. I started when I was in fourth grade, with a Frisch’s kids magazine that invited you to send in your address and interests. From there, I made many stateside penpals who introduced me to something called a Friendship Book.

Friendship Books (or FBs for short) are little booklets where people write in their addresses and interests and pass it on to their penpals, who do the same. If you receive one and find out that someone in England likes the same band as you do, you can write to that person. When the booklet becomes filled, it’s sent back to the person who started it, unless it was started for someone else.

At one point in time I had over 200 penpals. Some only sent a few letters, but others I have kept in touch with over the years. One of my most cherished penpals and friends is a girl named Litsa, who lives in Athens, Greece. Strangely, she was also the first person that I ever e-mailed. A horrible earthquake struck Athens and I was so worried about her well-being that I asked the Computer Science teacher if I could use her account to e-mail Litsa.

We would send each other envelopes and boxes full of goodies. My mom once baked Christmas cookies and we mailed them to her in a tin. Though they were crumbled when they got to Greece, Litsa and her family still enjoyed them.

Like most of my international penpals, Litsa was always worried about her English. She had better English than some of my classmates, and I later found out that her older sister was helping her write letters to me, which is why she didn’t write about things like boyfriends. (Ah, childhood.)

Even though I have had more interaction with people my age that live in foreign countries, I have yet to actually leave the US. My family doesn’t travel and we didn’t and don’t have enough money to live the US if we wanted to. Penpalling was a way for me to see the world outside of my small, cornfield town.

With the internet comes an interesting paradox for people like me. I once watched a live webcam of the main street of the town where my friend Paul lived. I can bring up photographs taken by travelers, read first-hand accounts…

To my parents, who would have never imagined the ability to do such a thing so easily, this is enough. It’s enough for them knowing that the internet connects places and people all over the world.

My generation grew up knowing that we could e-mail someone in another country, see live broadcasts from another country, and play a computer game with someone sitting over 2,000 miles away.

For us, it’s not enough. We desire more, to see it for ourselves. To take touristy pictures in front of landmarks to be able to say, we were here. This is our world. We are a part of it.

There is not a better opportunity for me to be part of the world than to study abroad.

For one, I could get grants and scholarships to help me with the financial aspect. I don’t have enough money to travel. That’s one thing that I’m really worried about, but I know that if I don’t take this opportunity now, it may never come again.

There is also the comfort that goes with the whole atmosphere of studying at another university with kids your own age, and sometimes even traveling with kids from your own university.

So what’s the problem?

I don’t know where to go.

I would love to visit all of my penpals, Litsa especially. But other countries beckon me in a more academic sense, Ireland in particular. I was planning on traveling to Ireland last summer and it never got off the ground.

I happened to be waiting outside of a classroom this fall semester and a study abroad poster caught my eye. Normally they do, but usually after I read them, I decide that the program isn’t right for me or simply doesn’t interest me.

But this one was different.

India.

(http://www.cas.muohio.edu/tibet/)

I’ve had my heart set on this trip from the moment I laid eyes on that poster. I e-mailed one of the professors in charge, asking if they would accept a Creative Writing major on a “pre-med” program, and they said they would love to have me.

All I have to do is apply, pay the $250 deposit, and sit back and wait.

I haven’t told my parents. They would laugh at me and dismiss my dreams. They would be entirely negative and I’m sure my mom would start talking about how impoverished the Indians are and you wouldn’t want to go there, you could get malaria or something.

I see things differently.

The program, while designated for those that are “pre-med”, is right up my alley. You take Tibetan philosophy courses and guided meditation classes. Even this sounds fun: “to learn about Tibetan medicine, mind-body healing, and the role of deep meditative states on health and illness as a contrasting model to the western biomedical scientific model.”

You live and interact with monks. I don’t think you could find a safer place.

Plus, it’s India. Most English majors travel to places like Ireland and England, but going to India is a unique opportunity and widens my background. I studied Buddhism in the 8th grade, and so actually going to where it is practiced would be amazing.

Everything involved with this India study abroad program seems almost TOO perfect; I am so worried everything is going to fall through, starting with me not getting accepted.

I guess for now all I can do is wait until the information sessions, which should be coming up in January.

Studying abroad, traveling abroad, means more to me than I feel it does to a lot of people. Those to whom it means a similar amount are the ones who have been blessed with enough money to do so at a young age, or parents who are travel-savvy.

I think I’m going to go make a prayer flag about this goal right now.



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