move in with my boyfriend

my boy is going to be in cali for aa couple of weeks which gives me time to work on some stuff for myself and help him with some things too. while he’s gone i’ll be making appointments for us to check out some places once he gets back. then hopefully we’ll find a nice place we can afford and put in an application. he doesn’t want to move until around the holidays, but it’s better to let them know you’re interested early because nice places and cheap places tend to be in high demand and i want to get our name out there.

i bought my very first one way ticket today. i’ll be going to virginia on april 18th. we’re going to look for apartments when i get there and then once we’ve got a place we’ll head back up to new york for my stuff and my cat. i have this awful nervousness that i don’t want to tell anyone about though. my mom would say i’m second guessing myself and tell me not to leave, but the thing that i’m really worried about is insurance. i’m a diabetic and i’ve been on my step-father’s insurance while i’ve been living here, but when i move i won’t be covered anymore and all i’ll have is medicare and they don’t even cover eye and dental (and i’m not sure about if they cover mental health – i have a pretty severe anxiety disorder and i need meds to keep me calm and cheery). i guess we’ll find a way to pay for my medical expenses, but i just wish i didn’t have to ask him to help. i know he wants to, but i don’t like having to rely on someone else to support me like i can’t handle things on my own. but i’ll stop now because i don’t think anyone really wants to hear about my problems.

we have a plan, we just have to work out the kinks. once he gets back from training (mid-april), i’m probably taking a trip out to see him or just getting my stuff together so i can just move down there and stay at his parents’ place until we find our own place. i’m excited. i just hope my poor cat can handle the long ride from new york to virginia.

after many long years of waiting, it look like we’ll be getting a place together in may or june. i say “looks like” because he has a problem with saving money. you’d think he’d never seen it before the way it just flys out of his wallet. i’m glad he’s putting me in charge of the money when we do move in together, otherwise i don’t know if we’d even make rent. but i’m starting to sound bitter now and i’m not. i’m thrilled that things are finally working out and i won’t have to take a bus out to see him anymore.

we’re looking for hopefully may as the move time. it all depends on if i can get any insurance when i move or not. and if he gets a job. that is something i can’t help with. quite frankly it gets a little frustrating. i don’t think he always tries as much as he could while i’m doing everything i can to get my shit together. we’ll see if the date gets pushed back (again) or not.