recover from anorexia

ive finally made my appoinment with my therapist.He greeted me nicely after all the hard times ive given him. Too bad his going away unil the 22nd so igotta wait a week and half ..or more days..the thing is my recovery is held on wait till then..im excited but atleast it build up the excitement jitters and fear..i hope im this excited for ever or until his back…hope pluh-ease

ok..im gonna try again to make an appointment to see my therapist….i dont do it on purpose but i procrastinate and make calling him a second..or maybe you can say last ,priority.Monday i will deffinately call him..promise to myelf

ive been struggling for 3 years or so..im tiired,teary,exhausted and bored of anorexia…..since 9th grade.ive been restrcting….got hospitalized at 56lbs to months…missed thanks giving,xmas,new years due to ED…..gained past over ideal weight after recovery…lost the next year…went to IOP for 3 weeks..got out and lost7 more pound till my present 82lbs…trying to find a new therapist..unsure about seeing a nutritionist,and i hate my doctor…i love my family and i want to live for real,not just exsist…for the past 3 days ive been over eating by 200 cals from my 1350 cals,and purging..hopefully ill stop over eating..today i didnt purge..i havent gained as i thought i would….im scared and hopeful.