write down some useful or positive things i have done/have happened today

-Cats: Vet…shots ?? meds for old girl…-DONE
-Cats: Book Cattery-DONE omfg….$648 with discount, GULP…
-Pay Skipbin Man (gulp…COD:()-DONE
-My baby turns 7!!! birthday, wrap the dam parcels before they get home from school….:(-DONE
-Counsellor (??don’t want to but think i should…)-CANCELLED
-See lawyer to sign transfer doc for sale of my house (last day available IS tomorrow, gulp!)-DONE
-Pick up medicine from chemist for 7 year old (gotta be tomorrow before Easter break…)-DONE
Sort out sleepover for my son on Friday, 3 kids…(aw crap, why this week, LOL…)SIGH…DOWN TO ONE KID, MAYBE…

showered

ate lunch…got shouted lunch, picked my guy up from work, he shouted me lunch :) made my day spending the time with him, really gave me a lift after being so sadarse last night….and he gave me lots of hugs…also offered to have all of us stay with him….i won’t but he is sweet to offer…

my girl had a GREAT birthday today, started with cupcakes for breakfast (lol) and a parcel from her Grandma….she took her pressie to school for news, sooo excited…:D then Dad picked them up after school, brought em back to me bout 6, her Grannie and Grandad turned up, brought up tea for us…we had cake…late LATE night, 10pm, they just gone to bed, but school holidays start here tomorrow, so doesn’t matter….

another beautiful sunny day today…bit chillier at nights, but great to see the sun out still…:)

tomorrow we start the big toss out….that skippy bin isn’t gonna fill itself!!! hopefully the kids will get into the spirit with me and we will be having contests as to who can chuck out the most old, crappy, broken junk lol….we are going to a SMALLER house after all, and it will be good to start fresh as well…

tomorrow is a week till i’m out, going to go research Caravan Parks next….the cheapest motel is STILL $95 a night for a single room for all of us…bit much for 3 weeks….

some progress then….gotta get onto that settlement letter tonight/tomorrow/tomorrow night, the bonus now is with Easter break, i have till Tuesday night anyway, the lawyers are closed till Wednesday….so no point overstressing bout it right now…

it’s 10.37pm, and i’m totally knackered…might even get an earlier night tonight, why not….

....give me the world’s smallest violin, i’m in pain tonight…sometimes i hate being a woman lol…

not a great way to start, but overall it’s been a good one despite that…had 2 mates call round and help me make a list, tomorrow looks full on….they are coming back to make SURE i have started packing and give me a hand….thank god for mates….one of em i hadn’t seen for weeks, great to see her again:)

talked to IRD, very understanding, got some unfinished stuff sorted there which is a giant relief… left message for WINZ, to tell em i signed up for a house and am moving next month, THEN maybe i can finally GET A BLUDY JOB and get off this benefit…. fed and bathed kids, fed myself…ummmm….fed the cats lol….did the dishes, did some washing….tomorrow, go to lawyers, get birthday stuff for my baby, get containers for kids to pack gear in, sort out some accommodation…it’s only really 3 weeks to pay, cos it’s three weeks i have my kids out of the 5…then they can stay with me like they want…and sort out cattery…can store my house stuff for free at a mates, phew that is a load off, it’s over $2,000 for a container…not an option….and need to hire a skip to toss out all the crap, we are going to a smaller place, and BOY there is too much stuff here (i’m probably worse than the kids….)

...finally, dunno how positive THIS is cos i could be doing other things, but have been lying on my couch cos i feel like death warmed up….resting up when you feel ouch must be good i spose….

my guy gets his kids for the weekend after a week of uncertainty, though i won’t see him till after that, i’m really happy for him, it’s been a month since he saw them…good job he is having them now, he misses em :)

so lots of forward movement today, all helping…slowly it starts to take shape, but gaining momentum now kids and i FINALLY have our own place to go to…:)

yesterday (Sunday)& today:

had my guy come and help me at home….i helped him clean up his place Saturday, dishes, bit of washing, only small things, he came and helped me Sunday, brought his industrial strength vaccum cleaner and vaccumed my whole house…took him two hours….i was so embarrassed, but needed the help, he offered…he also said he wanted me to feel better bout being here all this week and having a tidy place helps (he’s right…)

going to view a house tonight with the kids, they don’t know yet, but they are keen to see it, fingers x’d it works out…

sunny day again

my 11 year old helped so much yesterday when she got home, very very sweet, she said she missed me and wants to help me out more round the house cos it’s not fair i do it on my own (couldn’t tell the kids i had the help cos they don’t yet know i’m seeing anybody, but they were impressed by the tidy…AND it was 2 fingers up to my ex when he dropped them off…)

listened to my ex’s bs yesterday…felt nothing…just a twinge of annoyance and wished he would go away…vast improvement for me…

my other 2 daughters were up and dressed today all ready for school without me having to ask….and the 9 year old unloaded the dishwasher and made me a coffee…when i asked her why, and said thank you so much sweetie, but get your breakfast first, you have school…she said it’s cos she loves me lots and missed me last week and wants to help out more…

even though i only have $4 in the bank…THINK i get paid today, we have enough food for the week, and so far, so good, think all the bills are up to date, fingers x’d again…trying my best to keep on top of it all…

....bout to sit down and start some bludy accounts for a settlement, put it off for a week, just going to pick up a pen and paper and make a list first to get me started easy…

trying hard to stay in a good and positive mood and need to get off here and do some other stuff, that’s next.

my good gay mate got a job!!! :D STOKED for him…he’s been looking for ages, was getting worried for him…:)

kids helped me clean up…lounges are tidy (bar vaccumming, tomorrows job)

clean bed, clean washing, washing sorted, dishes done

cleaned out my dam truck!!!! NO more kids crappola everywhere…even found some shoes and tapes of MINE i thought had disappeared forever (how embarrassing, lol…) wow, i know where EVERYTHING is, can see the floor!!!

clean fed kids too…they were so good, took em down to the shop and bought em all an icecream, lol…they deserved it :)

looking forward to tomorrow…my kids, then my adult time..:)...will feel better bout being out tomorrow if the place is clean…:)

no unhappy moments today that i can recall…woo hoo:) that makes it a Red Letter Day, that doesn’t happen all that often….

my sis and my niece called in today, sooo good to see them both, don’t see this sister that often…:)

sun shone all day, gorgeous and hot…

lots of texts from my mate and my guy, always a bonus….the first one at 7am from my guy :)

altogether an AWESOME day…:D i hope for more like this one…you could say it wasn’t overly exciting…it wasn’t…but it was peaceful, it had laughter in it, not tears…and i was on top of it…that means a lot at the moment.

Had a shower

Ate food

My sister came over and visited me, she always makes me laugh and i even manage to make her laugh…:)

Looked at a house in the area i need to move to…pricey but ???....hmmmm….better than NOT looking….

My 11 year old is in my bed all snugged up waiting for me to cuddle up with her:)

No cutting

Remembered to lock up the truck (pretty important when you don’t have a garage….)

It was sunny today

Kids were happy playing together, not much fighting, and happy to see my sis….they were playing tiddlywinks with her before she went to bed

My guy texted me even though he worked till 11pm and said he misses me…awwww…

okkayy…what today…

hmmm…ate lunch (soup again, but beef vege and pasta) and tuna (with tomato and basil)
hung out some washing and tidied up (pity it wasn’t at my place but ah well…)
paid my overdue powerbill (thank god for the internet…)
no alcohol or dope…no cutting or burning..so far so good (fingers x’d…)
gave my kids a good birthday, they were really happy with their day yesterday
feeling a LOT better, not so “spacey”...got more sleep…ate more…
feeling a bit happier today…

EDIT: and it’s stopped bludy raining the sun is out…:)

1) emptied the dishwasher and reloaded it
2) re washed some washing
3) had a friend of a friend here…she offered me a hand if i need one when i pack up and move….she is a very nice lady…didn’t seem to think the house was in too much of a mess
(lol..)
4) ate lunch…sardines, soup

...i remember getting this advice from someone…

it did help last time, so i’ll try it again…

Here we go…

1) Have a beautiful little girl here today who is 3 and a half, my mates are on holiday overseas…we are having a nice time…she has been helping me bring in washing, hang it out…she has been painting…had a bath (cos she has been painting)...she is a happy little soul and is happy here with me. It’s nice to see that.

2) I got in 2 lots of washing and hung one out.

3) I did my mates washing and dishes.