Over the past few days, since I’ve been back at school I’ve tried a few times to talk to my classmates more but it’s sooo draining and none of it so far’s seemed worth it. Is it because they see me in a certain way as they’ve known me for a number of years? Is it because I’m just out of practise so I’ll get back into it in time? Or is it something else?
University will bring new oppurtunities etc and I can start fresh with people because they don’t know me but if I don’t get the practise in now, what good will that stuff do me? I know I need to do SOMEthing soon but how can I energize myself and be a more social person?
I HAVE to do this soon, for my sanity if nothing else. Today I made contact with an old freind of mine, who I’m hoping will be able to introduce me to some new people, and make it easier (I’m crappy with people). I’ll try to be myself and relaxed and keep my aggressive, cynical side under wraps.
I am 16 and feel completely alone. There are one or two people I know who might make good freinds, I just can’t get over the risks involved. Should I just go somewhere new and start completely fresh? Because that carries a lot of risks too and I’m too worried about the negative outcome to do anything. How the hell do I overcome the anxiety and where do I go once it’s dealt with?