I am authentic. I am who I am, I am what I am, and I do so without apology. I speak my mind, I do my thing, and if anybody decides to feel offended about it, I recognize that as their problem to deal with, not mine. I listen to my intuition consistently and err on the side of caution. I am creative in all areas of my life and romance my Artist through regular Artist Dates. I move freely between the masculine and feminine aspects of myself, enjoying and benefiting from both. Although I am within my rights not to share all information with all people at all times, I have no need to hide who or what I am or lie about anything I do.
I love my body. I show it kindness, gratitude, and affection daily. I give it plenty of sleep, continually better food, lots of water, supplements as needed, hot showers, enough brushing and flossing to feel great, and time to dance, move, stretch, and experience itself. I especially remember that it’s important for me to receive massage regularly, and it’s relatively easy to do since as a massage therapist myself, I can always work out a trade with somebody. I gently work on releasing my jaw whenever I notice it getting tight or fidgety.
I love my mind, and I choose to engage with only those thoughts and feeling states which I believe are beneficial or necessary. I recognize that sitting meditation is a crucial – DID YOU HEAR ME? CRUCIAL!!! – tool for keeping the balance of my mind, not to be neglected except in cases of severe illness or dire emergency. I avoid excess intellectual “junk food” and include a lot of positive mental input and activity in my brain’s “diet.” I qualify success for myself and live by that definition. I take no person’s word about anything as Gospel (except of course for the actual Gospels which are God’s word!)
I love my heart, and the time for anyone else to control my well-being is over. I refute and release any abusive thing that anyone may say or may have said about me. I consistently ignore any online reviews or feedback I receive, positive or negative, as this puts me at too great a risk of being abused. I recognize that as someone who has done my best, going above and beyond, I deserve to relax, find myself innocent of all “charges,” and receive my own lovingkindness, regardless of how the world rewards or punishes my efforts. If something is hurting my heart, something has to change. This life is very short and precious. I don’t wish to waste it on the experience of hurting, with which I already have far more experience than anyone ever needed in a lifetime.
I am a good, kind, loving, gentle person who acknowledges and celebrates the worth and the further potential of all beings, including myself. I am a source of love, comfort, and support; a soft place in the world for anyone who will receive it rightly. I seek to benefit everyone I come in contact with who is ready. All of my human relationships are with equal partners, and just as I don’t expect anyone to be my caretaker, neither do I expect to be placed in the role of a caretaker. Love, respect, affection, and commitment are two-way streets with steady traffic in both directions, and if there’s an imbalance I speak up and take action. I know that I am fully worth it – money, time, attention, whatever “it” may be – as a professional and a person.
Those who are not ready for such relationships, and/or make me excessively uncomfortable or put me at unacceptable risk on any level, I have the right and ability to walk away from – as kindly as possible, but decisively and in integrity. I avoid giving my contact information to anyone who I don’t instantly, intuitively like, trust, and really want in my life. I avoid spending time with those who are not habitually genuine, empathetic, and kind—-they drag me down, make me feel badly about myself and life, and typically don’t change.
I hold on tight to those who love me and love well; I hold on lovingly but more loosely to those who often love me poorly.
I realize that my mother, for reasons of her own, resents me and wants me to be unhappy; for that reason I seek to understand her abandonment as a good sign, meaning that I am going in directions she cannot comprehend because they extend toward happiness and fulfillment. I don’t have to have a relationship with her or feel guilty when she puts on an act of protest. In truth, I don’t need to worry about her reactions at all because she probably has a personality disorder (narcissistic disorder) and she’s not reacting to me anyway; she’s just doing as her brain says, and unfortunately her brain is totally misguiding her on a daily basis.
I depend on God and trust Him in times of need. I approach Him in prayer periodically throughout the day whether or not my circumstances feel at all like I need any extraordinary help. I reach out to Him just to experience being in relationship with Him.
Every day I beat the only competitor in the world who really matters: the person I was yesterday.
Ways to do more of this:
Say “no” without apology.
Make my creativity a priority, regardless of who may see me or what they may say.
Cultivate metta (lovingkindness).
Provide myself with lots of positive mental input and activity.
Release my jaw.
Pray periodically throughout the day just to experience being in relationship with God.