share whats happening in my life, how I feel about it and what encourages and inspires me

I’m not sure if I like them yet..
oh.. I like the style, that’s not it.. it’s the wearing glasses that I’m not comfortable with… the whole idea still scares me.
my eyes have been getting increasingly worse since my surgery last year and I’m just afraid of waking up one day and finding out I can’t see… alright.. I know that is very silly… a unfounded fear that has no basis in reality… it COULD HAPPEN.. but is very unlikely..
yes, my eyes have gotten unexpectedly worse over the last year, but not as much as was first thought, and it’s very correctable.
but going through a year of not being able to see and wondering if I ever would again left me in a mode that easily returns to fear.

But truth is winning out… even as I write about it, it seem less of a problem.. I find it not so much the blindness that I fear, but the unknown…
does that even make sense?
I have always wanted to have control
and not knowing, is not being in control..
hmmmm.
interesting.
the things we learn about ourselves…

My Dad is in the hospital at this moment… seem he thought that 80 was the perfect age to try his hand for the first time on an ATV.
The silly man didn’t even use a helmet!
He took a hill to fast and flipped the ATM. It pinned him underneath it and he was unconscious for nearly 15 min. My Bro thought he was dead !! really scary!! He was rushed to the local hospital. (not in the state he lives in, as at the time he was visiting my brother) He has 3 broken ribs, a fractured hip, and a torn rotator cuff… the first couple of days were pretty touch and go.. these are not the type of injury’s that an 80 yr old should recover from quickly and all can come with complications.
many older ppl die from complications from broken hips, I’m not sure why, but that is what I have read and have had friends parents suffer from.. but what we were most worried about was the possibility of pneumonia setting in his lungs.. he was having a hard time breathing and fluid was starting to fill them.

it has been 3 days now and I am happy to report that my Dad is doing much better.. his lungs are clearing and he is even taking a few steps!! the Dr are astonished at his progress!
this rapid healing is something that they have never seen even in a younger man, much less someone who is 80…

we really feel this can only be a direct answer to prayer… He had 100’s of ppl praying for him, maybe even more, as many ppl he didn’t even know posted and re posted on FB
I am amazed at the support of those that we didn’t even know.
and at how God takes care of his children

with one of my favorite friends in the world
I love you Rat!!

She had just turned 11 on the 9th and just a little over a month ago; almost died. (a long story and I don’t want to go into it now, but we all very glad and blesses to still have her with us)
This was her special treat… her day.
we left before 5 in the morning, hopped on a plane, arrived at the MSP airport around 8:30, took the light rail to the Mall and spent the day!! The highlight of the day, and our main destination was the American Girl Doll store. We had a reservation for a birthday party at noon, but first she needed to pick out her doll; her first American Girl doll… she chose Felicity, my older daughters favorite. This didn’t surprise me at all as the two girls have always been so much alike in both looks and personality and the Felicity doll also has the same red hair and freckles and is also a bit of an out of the box tomboy in her books.
Then for the meal; which was so much fun! It was a bit pricey but they went way above and beyond what I expected. It may be advertised as a restaurant for dolls and children; but make no mistake; this is a high class restaurant!! The price included the appetizer of your choice, meal… again each person had their own choice, and then her Birthday cake… We each got a nice gift bag of things we could actually use (including a picture frame) and of course.. the doll was well feed too .. lol
The service was excellent and the food was some of the best I have ever had… it compared to 5 star restaurants

ok… enough about that
the rest of the day was almost as fun
she went on every ride that was open… at least once
and the Sponge Bob roller coaster she went on at least a million times I’m sure!
she went to Build a Bear
Lego Land

oh… did I mention that she RAN to all these places!!
and that the smile NEVER left her face

this is very important information… you see
she hasn’t smiled, run, or acted like a child in a VERY long time
things have been very hard for her of late
she hasn’t had a lot to smile about

that was the best part of MY day
and I was so glad that God gave me the chance to make her so happy :0)

I love april fools day
I love telling people that we are on our way to the wrong city or we are having to land in the wrong city because of some problem..
then quickly follow it up with “april fools”
I get the best reactions and they have the most fun getting me back for the rest of the flight

I can’t wait for tomorrow!

I never realize how much those 4 word could mean;
how those 4 little words could bring me to tears.
I haven’t heard from my Grand daughter in almost a year now.
I can’t go into the whole story, but there have been problems and my older two grandchildren (step grand daughters) are back with their “real” mother and have been discouraged from keeping contact with us..
(after all, I’m not really a the grandma you know)
but we had been close.. and I was so hurt when that contact was broken..
I have been sending emails, chats and messages on MySpace.. but I have never gotten a response. they would engage me in the games at time and, from time to time I might get a “poke” or a “bear hug” ... but never a message or words
A couple of weeks ago I sent another email.. just a simple “how are you, I love you , I miss you”
it simply said “I miss you too. I have been good. How are you?”

I’m on the top of the world :0)

it just disappeared!!
I don’t know when it happened, or how long it has been gone.
I just know that I went to make an entry under it just noe and it’s not there!!
then I went to see if it had some how been moved to my “done” or “give up” list… and guess what.. I have no “give up” list… it’s all gone too… and I know there were at least 25 things or more in there just last week!!!
so now what??
this was one of those goals that was a dream of dreams
one that will more then likly never come true.. but I will always dream it will
and I will never give up that dream
i want my goal back
and I want it back with all the entries and all the cheers!!

and I want my other goals back too

and for those who are now serving our Country
for your service and sacrifice
for all you have done to keep our Nation free
Thank you to the familys of those who have sent their sons and daughters into battle and those who have lost children and parents, spouses or even just dear friends

I thank you from the bottom of my heart and my prayers are with the troops continually

I’m going to get to go to church tomorrow!!!

that will make two time for this month!
I have vacation in two weeks so I can go then,
and because of that it also puts me over hours …long story… in short it means that they have to use others first until they reach the “cap” then I’m back on the list…
so I’m basically off tomorrow …and..
I get to go to church tomorrow!

no matter what you do
it turns out wrong

at time
I can mess even the best stuff up