Give God All of Me

In his book The Weight of Glory and Other Addresses

We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in the slum because he can not imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased

it’s so easy to get lost in the desires of this world and forget that this is just a shadow … a reflection of things to come. What God has for us is so much more real and more rich that it makes this “fun” look … sick.
The Apostle Paul called it rubbish (or literally dung, or crap in Greek)
Phil. 3:8-9
I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness
of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all
things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ and
be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes
from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ the
righteousness that comes from God and is by faith.

nothing else matters

Roman 1:25
For they exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped
and served the creature rather than the Creator, who is
blessed forever.

Isaiah 45:9
“Woe to the one who quarrels with his Maker An earthenware vessel among the vessels of earth! Will the clay say to the potter,
‘What are you doing?’ Or the thing you are making say,
‘He has no hands’?

1. God love ME not my body the me inside .. And if I was fat, he would still love ME .. He die for me and wants me to give my life … my whole life, to Him
2. My body is temporary it is getting older it might get fat. It will die what I do and how I live for Christ will last
3 anything that I put before God INCLUDING FOOD becomes an idol and my god. YOU SHALL HAVE NO OTHER GODS BEFORE ME
4 instead of trying to focus on what not to do I need to turn my focus on God
5 there is a good chance that things could get harder before they get easier. It’s hard to tell how strong something is unless it is tested. His strength is made perfect in my weakness.

I can’t do this on my own, but I CAN do it through Christ
a friend sent me this song my Reliant K that just about sums it up
it’s called Be My Escape

the beauty of grace is it makes life not fair

this last month has been a real time of ups and downs…
I have had a real struggle with my eating again, and the real battle came with my desire to want to run for my problem and from God

I’m finding though that I am learning as much or more from the times when I fall as when I am strong.. and I am finding that I can’t and don’t need to do this on my own

“His strength is made perfect in my weakness”

how we can mess up so completely and God still not only forgives us but restores us and blesses us even in our weakness. I have made a lot of stupid mistakes these last few months, years, but God has show me, how when I give my life to Him how he can take those mistakes and use even those to His glory.
More then that, He loves us so completely and paid such a high price for us that He will make sure that we are transformed into the creation He wants us to be.
The more you pay for a product, the more interest you are going to take in making sure you get what you want.
I can rest in the knowledge that God is not going to give up on me, because I know He has already paid the highest price to make me His own.
He wont give up on me.

it’s easier to run then it is anything else, especially for me.
I have perfected the art.
there are times when I remind myself of a small child having a temper tantrum when they didn’t get their way. looking back, I know I made the wrong decisions. I wonder even now if I would change then if I had it to do over again. I want so badly to get it right, to do it right … to be perfect.
I want God to have it all, but there are little hidden area that sneak in here and there that I get comfortable with, and then don’t want to give up, and they turn into pride and rebellion.
I try to take control….but things then go out of control
I need to rest and trust in Him once again
and Give Him all

and I’m not losing this battle without a fight
_{some people have to fight harder for things then other} ;)

and since God is fighting for me … I don’t think I have to worry about losing at all

It seem when I mess up…I really mess up. I don’t do things in a small way, but God is so gracious, and He uses those time in my life to show me more of Himself.

He gave me two verses today

1 Corinthians 1:26-28
For consider your calling, brethren, that there were not many wise according to the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble: But God has chosen the weak things of the world to shame the things which are strong, and the base things of the world and the despised, God has chosen, God has chosen the things that are not, that He might nullify the things that are.

if anyone can be considered week or base in this world …it’s me, and if He chose me …He can use me for His glory

2 Corinthians 4:6
For the God who said, “Light shell shine out of darkness,” is the One who has shone in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ.

there may be darkness in my heart, but God is the one who will and is shining through for others to see

God showed me something today…something He has for me to do …kinda scary ..no really scary… It’s much bigger then I want to do…but I have given Him all

it’s so easy to lose focus
to take back control
when I take my eyes off Him and put them back on me

I don’t want it back

for me to live is Christ, to die is gain.

Job 19:25-26
“As for me, I know that my Redeemer lives And at the last He will take His stand on the earth. Even after my skin is destroyed, Yet from my flesh I shall see God;

I love this song…OK ..it’s obviously not about me… but when this song comes on, sometimes I just am overwhelmed at what God has done in my life in this last year…I’m really not who I was
I wish you could see me now.

I’m Not Who I Was
by: Brandon Heath

I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I’m not who I was
I used to be mad at you
A little on the hurt side too
But I’m not who I was

I found my way around
To forgiving you
Some time ago
But I never got to tell you so

I found us in a photograph
I saw me and I had to laugh
You know, I’m not who I was
You were there, you were right above me
And I wonder if you ever loved me
Just for who I was

When the pain came back again
Like a bitter friend
It was all that I could do
To keep myself from blaming you

I reckon it’s a funny thing
I figured out I can sing
Now I’m not who I was
I write about love and such
Maybe ‘cause I want it so much
I’m not who I was

I was thinking maybe I
I should let you know
I am not the same
But I never did forget your name
Hello

Well the thing I find most amazing
In amazing grace
Is the chance to give it out
Maybe that’s what love is all about

I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I’m not who I was