stop being so insecure

to the point where I really don’t think to much about anything, let alone myself, an I don’t say that in some depressing way, it’;s just that I am so busy with other things on my mind, then feelings and worries, So I guess for the most part, I am doing this, but is it really avoiding it?

this has taken a great leap, I have confidence, I’m happy, and sure I have some days where I don’t ””””feel”””” good, but I don’t stop to think about them.

I am so proud of myself, and fuck my stupid parents who never praised me for school or encouraged me to strive for ANYTHING!
I am doing so well I have self ESTEEM !! and SELF confidence! two things that are new to me. I have no time to worry if my family is upset about their OWN problems. and the life that goes on outside of my own home, still goes on without me. I have my health, my kids health I smile and laugh, and enjoy the sunrise, see the moon at nite, do homework at school and read to my kids at bedtime and fall asleep with the man I love…...thanks to my higher being, I am blessed.

is getting a little better too, it falls in the same lines as beating depression, and being happy. I am getting along so much better with myself. and not letting others get to me…...BUt I still have my moments when I ask the Q’s that I know the answers to, I just need to be re assured. I know I need confidence and some areas I do others I don’t…..but I get by….