hi everyone. i haven’t written since june. i have been trying to stop masturbating since early this spring, and it has been a long and terribly frustrating road for me to walk down. i just wanted to let everyone who uses this site as a true source of encouragement know that it is NOT IMPOSSIBLE. As of today, I have gone 220 days with masturbating. I thank God for the strength that only He could have provided me with. For all of you who keep feeling like you are failing, and that it feels like Day 1 happens all the time, the fact that you care and have the inner conviction enough to want to stop is an accomplishment no matter who you are. I just wanted to give an update and to hopefully encourage all of those who maybe haven’t made it a whole week with masturbating before, but want to stop. It truly is an addiction that you must stop because it can and will control you if you let it. So, for all of you who really desire to stop, no matter what the reason, I commend you and want to let you know that it is absolutely possible and you CAN do it. Thank you so much for your support and praise God for the conviction and the strength to be able to be in control of your body, and not let it control you. Thanks.
flyingfinn has written 24 entries about this goal
success and still going strong. with each day, i’m hoping more and more to make masturbation a part of my past rather than a piece of baggage i have to carry with me and keep fighting each and every day. i’m still tempted every day, but i feel like i have more say in my mind over whether or not i should do it. i remember back when i was really addicted to it, whenever i would try to “stop” (if that’s what you could call it), i would argue with myself for about 15 minutes, and then, in the end, my mind that was fighting for me to not give in would just stop speaking and i would only hear the temptation calling me.
now, when the temptation comes on strong, i can hear my mind and my spirit, for that matter, crying out to my sanity, telling me to stop and focus on what’s really going on. it’s not about doing something that feels good, it’s not about relieving stress. in the end, it’s just about constantly remaining a slave to something and not being able to free yourself from it.
MB is just as much of an addiction as a drug that you take, we all know that, and that's why we're here. no, it doesn't have the same physical and mental affect, but it's an addiction either way. and i always think about that when the temptation comes, and i am trying to figure out how to say no, the fact that i will become re-enslaved to it once again really pushes me away from it.i pray for everyone on this site whenever i can, and i hope you all don’t mind. i just always pray that God gives you courage and strength to press on and never give up to it. amen.
success. praise God. i’ve been feeling the temptations more recently, but i’m doing my best not to let the thoughts get to me. it was great to look back at my calendar and see how many days it has been since i last masturbated. i am so happy that God has given me the strength to keep going, and i know i will continue.
Psalm 118:13- “You did your best to kill me, O my enemy, but the Lord helped me. The Lord is my strength and my song, He has become my victory.”
how i ended up here is lost to me, but i am so thankful for each day. i never thought that i could become such a slave to something and be so addicted to it, that i saw no end in sight, and then somehow get out of it. after trying and trying and constantly failing, i feel like i am really getting past this. the temptation still comes, more often than you would think, but it feels easier to get rid of, and i have the power to ask God to give me the power to do something else with my time. i can’t wait to go for another 55 days without being a captive of MB. praise God.
still holding on. praise God. thank you all so much for the support, without this site, i don’t know how long i could have gone for. this is weirdly enough, the only place where i don’t feel awkward about talking about my desire to completely stop MB-ing, maybe it’s because we all share in the pain and the goal. but yeah, everyone keep up, and please don’t rely on your own strength to get through this, it won’t work. rely on God, and He’ll get you where you need to be in your life. God bless all of you.
success. praise God for the strength He gives me to resist each and every temptation that comes into my mind.
success. :) i keep writing entries in even though i’ve been told i don’t need to, i can check the “worth doing” bar, and be done with it, but…it’s a constant struggle that gets easier over time, but still a struggle never the less. i feel like if i don’t put something down to show myself how grateful i should be, then i might take it for granted, and slip. I encourage all of you who are trying to break this habit/addiction to really keep pressing on, and don’t let guilty feelings ruin your life if you slip. trust me, guilt doesn’t make it somehow easier to combat the temptation.
i used to think that, because i felt guilty, i wouldn’t do it anymore because i felt so bad, but the thing about it is, masturbating becomes such a part of daily life, guilt can’t stop us, only will-power, prayer, and complete devotion can. for me, if i would feel guilty, i would only slip up again until i didn’t care if i should feel guilty or not. the happiness a person feels for just making it a day or a week or even a month, that’s the juice that keeps me going. i’m shooting for two months now, the longest i’ve ever gone without it, and i plan to keep going until this is a thing of my past. thanks for all the support, and i will continue to support those trying to accomplish the same goal that i am.
God Bless You All for what you’re trying to do. It takes guts to even attempt it. Be proud that you care enough to try to stop. Feel good about yourself for that reason, if nothing else.
i have finally gone one month straight without it. God has helped me so much this past month in helping to lessen the temptation. It has been such a difficult journey, i’ve had so many days where i would start by saying “I’m not gonna do it today, I will be strong” and then later on in the day, i do it anyways. i have felt so bad about it and about myself, i used to think i was going to be stricken with the curse for the rest of my life, but i truly have felt that masturbating is a thing that will stay in my past. just always understand that God is there for you to put the weight of the world from your shoulders onto His, because thats what He wants. He wants you to know how dependent you are on Him, and to put all of your trust in Him, and for me and others, the struggle to stop masturbating has been a way to find that dependence on God. I would like to recommend the calendar technique, where you keep track of each day that you do and don’t masturbate on a calendar, it’s been such an incentive for me to keep going. Praise God.
