lose weight

I lost the will power for a long time, a really long time, but now it’s time to get my shit together. I’m sick of people calling me a mess and saying that my life is just unorganized. I don’t want that anymore.
Today is the second of the month. I want to lose 10 pounds by the end of july. I think that if I just work at it I can do it. It’ll take a lot of determination though. I have been staying up till all hours in the morning and waking up at about 2 pm. That needs to change. I’ve always had a vision of me being able to go to sleep early, wake up at six, and go for a run. One of those people, athletic.
Here are my stats, yet again.
Height: 5’8.5”
Weight: 123.5
Here’s my goal: I don’t want to be bony, I just want to get rid of the fat that’s resting on my thighs and on my stomach, I want to be toned and thin.
How I plan to do it: Cutting back calories, running at LEAST 3 times a week, elliptical on days that I do not run.
The Rules:
-No junk food, at all. If I even PUT something unhealthy into my mouth, it always becomes a binge fest.
(What qualifies as junk food, you ask? Pizza, chocolate, anything that is “candy”, chips, popcorn (the type with all the fake butter), anything that would be considered unhealthy, you know the drill)
- Organic whenever possible, but not necessary
- No soda! Water only, or unsweetened iced tea.
- Drink 8 glasses of water a day. That translates into 4 poland spring water bottles
- Full fat milk is a no-no. Only skim is allowed.
- Alchohol is permitted, just only Light Beer/ Liquor, and not too often
- No sugar substitutes are allowed, because they wreak havoc on your body, but sugar should be used scarcely.
- No “cheating days”, they only mess up your diet.
- Aim for at least an hour of physical activity a day. (That could be walking through town, but at least 30 minutes must be intense, as in running or biking or elliptical)
- Track all the calories that come into my body.
- Track the liquid calories as well!
My Plan: Tomorrow I am going to wake up early and go for a run (3.6 miles), then I am going to shower and get dressed and go shopping for healthy food. If anyone has any recommendations for healthy snacks, I’d love to hear them!
Thanks for any support guys, I know we can do this,
xoxo, H.

Day #2 was not too shabby at all! I feel like I really ate healthily today, though I did eat half of a toaster strudel, what can I say… they are so good!

Today I did some exercise. A 15 minute bike ride, 10 minutes on my trampoline, and 50 crunches.
Definitely not much, but I spent 3 hours cleaning my room, and that definitely burns some calories.

Today I Ate:
B: Two eggs, one without the yolk, a serving of frosted flakes, and half a cup of whole milk. ( I know, should have gone with non-fat)
L: A smoothie with: half a cup of blueberries, 4 large strawberries, and 4 fl oz of orange juice. A piece of “pizza bread”, with four tablespoons of balsamic vinaigrette
S: That half of a toaster strudel… crafty little thing just worked its way into my hand XD.
D: Half a cup of spaghetti, and one fourth cup of tomato sauce.

I had a few small snacks today, so though the original total was 944 calories, I am going to put it at 1000, just because I had quite a few nibbles and such throughout the day. I have to stop doing that, really! Those nibbles add up fast.
I didn’t drink as much water as I would like today, only about 20 ounces.

Tomorrow will be even better! I am on my way to being back on track, and I know it! No more snacking tomorrow. I am going to be packing for a trip to Delaware, so I am going to have to remember to keep my eyes on the prize, not on the food.

Good luck guys!

xoxo, H.

Today was not… such an amazing first day. I’m not trying to focus on losing weight, persay, but I really want to focus on being healthy. Eating healthy, living healthy.

So far that has been a bust. Complete bust. I ate so much junk today, I cant even recall what and how much. What I hypothesized at the beginning of my first diet was correct. When I am eating healthy, I feel… amazing. I am lighter on my feet, I have more energy, my head is clear. But then I get back to eating junk food, and I am sluggish, tired, and just feel… crappy.

Tomorrow will be better. I can feel it. Tomorrow I will eat: Lets see.
B: Two eggs, one without the yolk, one orange.
L: Smoothie, with: 6 strawberries, 15 blueberries, half a bannana, one fl oz of oj
D: half a cup of spaghetti, two tablespoons of tomato sauce.

I don’t know how many calories that would be tomorrow, but I don’t really care. As long as by the end of the day, I am feeling satisfied, happy, and as if I ate healthily, then I will be completely okay with how I ate.

Tomorrow I am also planning on doing a lot of housework and cleaning, which for some reason always puts me in a really good mood. This will both be some exercise and something to keep my mind off of food. XD.

I’ll check in tomorrow to let you guys know how I am doing!

xoxo, H.

Where is all my self control? Why has it left me? Today my dad bought a ton of food from PeaPod, so I think that I am okay on the healthy food front, so why do I keep flocking to the unhealthy?

Tomorrow I will start my 33 day diet. I’ll track everything I eat for the month of August in its entirety, and I will try to lose those last 7 stubborn pounds. I want to go back to school looking amazing, so I have to be fit and strong for crew season. I have never rowed before, but I’m hoping that regular exercise and weight lifting will get me to be in tip-top shape.

I’ll tell you how it goes tomorrow!

xoxo, H.

I was doing some research online last night, on healthy recipes(trying to get myself out of this ugly eating ditch). I was getting down on myself, because while in a forum, with stick skinny girls giving each other advice on how to be more stick skinny, I started to compare myself. What an awful idea.

I have never been fat… as in obese. Chubby? Yes. My brother never fails to point that out (who cares? He has no friends anyway). But these girls on the website were really bringing me down… they all had pictures of how thin they were, and “Look how fat I am!” as a comment. It made me physically sick! I was thinking that lately, how my self esteem has been low because of the extra poundage I have been packing…

I realized later that trying to compare myself to these girls was not only a bad idea, it was being just plain stupid. The girls on this site were obviously suffering from SOMETHING. They were hurting themselves and their bodies, and even looking at that in an even SLIGHTLY positive light is what causes me to feel like I need to even lower myself to their level. I dont. They have issues, serious ones. I really hope they find themselves some help..

I realized that not loving who you are and what you look like was those girls initial problem. Soon it morphed in their skinny little heads that they were fatter than they are and they just… hated themselves. I just wanted to write this entry to let myself and everyone know: Though we will continue to strive to be at a healthier weight… We are all beautiful. Just remember that when you are down on yourself. We are all beautiful people, no matter what shape, size or form we come in.

Good luck guys. Stay strong, and stay positive. Love yourself, love your friends, and love your bodies!
xoxo, H.

Okay, so yesterday night I wrote about how I was going to splish splash today with my friends? Well. I had a competely awful day. NOTHING I ate today was healthy… at all.
B- Starbucks rice crispy marshmallow square
S- Half a cup of Dippin Dot’s Ice cream
L- 1 small serving of curly fries, and 5 popcorn chicken pieces.
S- 3/4 of a funnel cake, half a slice of pizza, and 1 garlic knot
D- WENDYS- UGHHH! A kid’s cheeseburger and half of the fries, and a diet coke. (That even went against my vegetarianism)

Total Calories for the Day: 1,587 calories! Ugh… not just unhealthy, but packed with fat and disgustingness!

Needless to say, I am dissapointed in my lack of self control. I told myself last night that I could just eat ONE unhealthy thing… instead I ate ALL unhealthy things!

Tomorrow will be better! I’m hoping… no. I know it!

xoxo, H.

I have been going through a few days of depressive eating. We had a memorial service for my grandma about 3 days ago where we spread her ashes on the beach. It was really hard to say goodbye, and I just ate and ate and ate… does it really matter though? I am getting better with my mood and moral, and I can’t change the past.

I believe, though I didn’t really lose that much, that I am only a pound below my starter weight! That means that once again, I have to lose 6 pounds before school starts. I have definately almost been going for twice my calories consumed goal in the last few days, and I have been living with a constant food baby. (Juno reference, lol)

Today I can barely even remember everything I ate, so I don’t think I will. Tomorrow I need to keep better track of everything, so even if I stuff my face, at least I will know how much.

Tomorrow I am going to Splish Splash with my friends! Yay! The entire day will be spent screaming my lungs out and running around the park… tons of fun! There will be tons of temptation, what with all the booths advertising the fatty foods and junk and the like, but what’s one thing, as long as I am running around frantically :D. As long as I KEEP it at ONE item, not six. The key is moderation, when you are going for high-cal foods.

I hope everyone is doing better than I am!

xoxo, H.

So earlier tonight, I was heading over to my friends house so that we could watch Secret Life of An American Teenager (best show everrr!) and on the way over on my bike, I was going down a hill. I was completely loving the feeling- wind in my hair, salty bay smell nearby (she lives by the water).

I stupidly tried to speed up, and suddenly my foot slipped off the pedal, and my toe scraped against the ground, going maybe 20 mph. OW!!!! It was bleeding bloody hell and it was just awful! The top part of my big toe is almost OFF! OW!!!! I don’t know how I am going to do camp tomorrow, because it really just hurts like a bitch. Ouch ouch ouch… I would show you guys a picture, but I don’t want to make the squeamish frightened. Cuz it really frightened me. From a medical stand-point, it is pretty cool though. :).

Anyway, while I was at her house, I ate a snack pack of Dibs and about half a cup of white cheddar cheese popcorn. I had my foot propped up with ice, but it still really hurts! Ugh. I really hope this doesn’t ruin my week at camp… that’s what we do. Play softball. You can’t do that with a stump toe! (I’m exaggerating with the stump part, but it does hurt!)

Well, I’ll write to you tomorrow morning to tell you how its doing! See you later guys!

xoxo, H.

Hi guys. I’m back faster than I thought I would be. My situation is much better now than it was about 5 days ago. It seems like ages since I last wrote, but it was only thursday. My friends and everyone on 43things have been so supportive and kind to me. I don’t know where I would be without them <3.

The problem is, while I have been gone, I have been eating junk like a pig, and not really caring what I ate. Problem. I gained about 3 pounds in 5 days, putting me, once again, 5 pounds away from my goal. Poop. Yesterday I started softball camp though, and we do softball-type activities for about 5 hours a day, which according to the daily plate, burns 1,191 calories! It kind of makes up for the awful eating I have been doing, because I have camp for the next 2 weeks. Fun!

Today I Ate a Ton!
B: 100 calorie pack of cookies ( I found it in my friends bag :D)
L: A green salad with a light italian dressing, a Kid’s Mix from quaker, a few bites of peach, and a water bottle.
S: (This is where I was so awful) a bag of sour patch watermelon, two 8-inch churros, and some brownie. Later I ate 4 chocolate chip cookies as well!
D: Half a slice of pizza.

Today’s total came out to be: 1,596 calories, according to the Daily Plate . com (A new site that I am using that I positively ADORE! Anyone looking for a good weight tracking site, go here, its amazing!)

But I burned a ton of calories with camp, from sweating in the sun and doing drills, so I guess its okay with the awful day. But I want to be down to my target weight by the end of the summer! Tomorrow I will plan out my meals, as to avoid overeating.

See you guys later!

xoxo, H.

This morning I got some news that has prompted me to put this goal on hold…. at about 7:30 I found out that my grandmother had passed away about 20 minutes previously.
This is incredibly saddening news that I should have been prepared for… but how can you be? She has had three strokes in the last month, and she was suffering immensely. She is in a happier and better place right now.

I’m sorry guys. I don’t know how long I will not write, but I just can’t deal with something small and trivial like losing weight when I have lost something much more important…

Kelly Welsh: (1937-2008) You will always be remembered, loved, and missed.

Sorry for the depressingness guys…