re-establish relationship with my mother

It’s time to quit being so selfish. Time to put aside whatever caused me to withdraw from my mom. I really have no idea…or no certainty why I did it. For the longest time I told myself it was because she disapproved of me wanting to be with Kim. I think really it was because she knew I was self destructing and couldn’t really stand by and watch it without saying something. I’m sure I’ve hurt her deeply and I’ll never be able to make that up. But I can start over. It’s the least I can do