accomplish 101 things in 1001 days

I’ll give up a day of tv every month within the next few months. I’m going to read at least 1 more classic before the year ends. I’m getting off of some of the pills which i’m glad because I hate taking pills and some of the side effects make me skip them sometimes. I have been taking less time to shower although I still take too long sometimes. It feels good in there. I haven’t done any drugs in years and i don’t plan on doing them ever again. I don’t plan on getting drunk either.

Picked up Tom Sawyer and I placed a hold on 1 of the books before die. I’ve been walking at least 2 a week to the library instead of the beach since I don’t feel like taking the bus all the time to the beach. The sarcasm is very hard because my father is sarcastic and so is his father so that’s where i get it from. I’m not always happy, but I’m more happy than I was before. I like who i am . I might not be perfect but no one is. The only books and movies I’ve been getting the past few months are 1’s that i win .

I finally started cleaning my room . I’m going to start on the list book to read before you die after I finish what I’m reading. I’m getting back to classics with Tom Sawyer. I’m starting to let go out of my anger. It’s not east but it is becomeing less and less. I’m happier with myself since I have lost some weight. I’m listening to all different types of music. I been taking short showers.

64. be less sarcastic +
65. let go of my anger with myself and other people +
66. find a way to earn money even if it’s not a job +
67. accept that for some thing i’ll never get the kind of clousure i was hoping for +
68. accept the fact that i didn’t seem to matter as much to my parents as my sister:((i could be wrong but it seemed she could do no wrong) +
69. find something that will make me happy longer than a few hours +
70. be happy with the person i am *
71. do what i want because i want to not because someelse think i should +
72. accept that my life hasn’t turn out the way i thought it would and some of it is my fault +
73. find out all the side effects of all the pills i’m taking+
74. if i ever have enough money saved take a cruise around the world _
75. make better goals that really affect my life +
76. give at least 6000 cheers +
77. accept my family the way they are *
78. be the best Mark i can be +
79. just walk away rather then get into trouble *
80. get more sleep or do something about it +
81. accept that the past is over and live for the present +
82. work more on goals that will actually change my life +
83. figure out what i need to be happier +
84. if i go online spend some time looking at news +
85. try and be less negative +
86. clean my room and keep it clean_
87. remember the good things about family members that have died +
88. take less time to shower +
89. when i’m out of debt, only use credit cards when absolutely neccsary *
90. know that even if i don’t get revenge i’m better than people who wronged me *
91. take more risks _
92. spend more on clothes, instead of movies or food +

I'm trying to be less sarcastic. It's not going as i would hope but little by little it's happening. I haven't eaten out in a while . I'm saving to buy some new sneakers and shirts. I still take too long in the shower. Sometimes it's relaxing and can get you away from everything for a few minutes but i'm less long showers. My room is organized enough for me although i suppose 1 day i might actually clean it. I'm really not that angry anymore at some people . I just don't care about them. I just won't let them back in. They don't anymore 2nd chances. I think i'm am being a better. I'm walking so i'm losing weight , eating less junk food and watching less tv.  Well the past does matter some I'm accepting that it doesn't have to affect the future anymore.

28. own every episode of a whole series +
29. make better decisions +
30. stop watching so much mindless tv +
31. try at least 1 new thing a month +
32. go online less time +
33. ask more questions at the doctor +
34. not be so sensitive +
35. realize that i am as good if not better than alot of people *
36. ask for help sooner if i need it +
37. get out of the house more even if it just to take a walk +
38. not let other make my decisions *
39. move somewhere where i don’t have to shovel _
40. buy what i need before i buy what i want +
41. take shorter showers +
42. take some time off from 43 things *
43. give at least 20 cheers everyday for a month _
44. complete every list on the 1st 2 pages +
45. find a new hobby _
46. not let anyone get in my way for what i want to accomplish +
47. accept that i’m not perfect and we all make mistakes +
48. walk on the beach in the summer at least 3 times a week_
49. do something by myself that i never tried before +
50. see the ball go down in times square _
51.stop blaming other people +
52. never ever be an enabler again*
53. read at least another 15 classics _
54. become a better dancer _
55. try something people though i never would or could_
56. find something that would involve my own age to socialize with _
57. speak my mind +
58. not let anyone but me control my life ever again +
59. learn to drive (i don’t have my license) _
60. drink in moderation when i start drinking again *
61. not do any more drugs again ever *
62. ignore what my former” friends” say behind my back *
63. never back down when i’m right +

I'm defintely making better decisions not hanging out with certain people, not being influenced by them at all. I still watch too much tv but I'm cutting back some maybe I will be able to give up a day or 2 a month. I have learned that some things are partly my fault because i wasn't completely honest with myself and well some things are others , i can't blame them for everything. I don't care what my former friends think anymore. They're such fucking losers. When karma starts working they'll get there's. I might go for my license again in a few months. I do some things people probably thought i wouldn't but none of them have been new yet.

• = completed/just about completed + = working on
  _ = haven’t started yet

1. move _
2. never let certain people back into my life(if i can do it for 1001 days i figure i can do it forever) *
3. be financially independant +
4. be able to move on beyond certain things that are holding me back +
5. get my bachelor’s degree _
6. give up at least 1 day of tv every month +
7. make more friends (not just virtual) +
8 tell the people in my life how much they mean to me (i know this sounds easy but it isn’t) +
9. read at least 25 books from the list to read before you die _
10. get rid of clothes i don’t wear anymore +
11. learn that some people will never change no matter what * 12. visit family that doesn’t live very close _
13. expand my cd collection _
14. stop taking so many pills +
15. go on the internet less +
16. save money the way i use to _
17. not let little things bother me so much anymore +
18. listen to at least 25% of the albums to listen to before i die +
19. try and have a better relationship with siblings +
20. get rid of any list that doesn’t have at least 5% completed +
21. exercise more _
22. organize my movie collection *
23. thank my parents for everything they have done for me +
24. consider going to school for a trade +
25. stop being concerned with people who aren’t concerned with me *
26. stop buying so many movies +
27. socialize more with my people my own age _
I’m not sure if i want to go back to college or not. i think i do need more studies but college is so expensive and a big commiment that i think i rather do something didn’t take so long and didn’t cost so much. Even know i’m not letting him back in my life he still calls , not that i talk to him:-). He’s never going to grow up. I’m going to try and start the books to read before you die in the summer and hopefully i’ll exercise more. I haven’t bought many movies since i started this goal only 2 ir 3, which is good for me, considering i use to buy 4 or more a month. I just don’t like to go out that much but I’m really going to try and find people my own age.

i don’t know when it started but i think i got it from my father . he can be very sarcastic at times.i don’t know how to stop completely but maybe i can reduce it .

he didn’t want the grandchildren seeing him in the hospital when he had the lieukemia. i understand but it still would have been nice to see him 1 lat time. i did get to know both of them not as much as i would like. i wish they had both lived longer or i had been born sooner.

i like them far better than my father’s parents . they generally cared about us. i wish i could remember them both better. my grandfather never kept track of what he did for someone . he just did it because he loved you and he would help anyway he could.

is how much he used to love jigsaw puzzles he displayed lots of them in their house. i wish he had lived longer so i could have gotten to know about him. it so hard to believe he’s been gone 20 years.