finish school

Two more big papers to go, although those will both be English papers and this one was a research paper for my independent study.

And I don’t regret it. Everything that needed to happen did and I’ll do my school work all this week and then maybe pause again next weekend. I’m ready. I think I can do this.

Oh, the things I’ve done this semester to get by…

I wish it was Thanksgiving break already.

I need to finish my Wiki project, and the PTSD paper for the lab.

Then after those are out of the way I need to study for biopsychology because I got the test moved to next Wednesday. Gosh. That is going to be hard but maybe if I can keep in mind that it’s just a test I will be over to get through it most effectively. Like any other test, if you study hard enough you can get it.

And lastly, both my English classes require a little attention.

I really need to remember what I want. I can’t let myself slip this late in the game, for any reason.

Ugh. October is not going well for me. I mean it is and it isn’t. I’ve gotten a lot of work done but there is still so much work left to do and I am feeling run down. There’s been a lot of personal stuff going on (isn’t there always in October?). I’ve been asking for help but not getting any.

Time to get to work. Maybe.

I got a D on something I studied incredibly long and incredibly hard for. Now I am trying/struggling to keep things in perspective and find 3-5 good things for every bad.

I have suddenly realized that English papers are the source of most of my paper-writing anxiety. I am looking at the requirements for a two to three page paper and totally freaking out. That should be NOTHING. But for whatever reason it seems insurmountable.

So I wrote out the question in my notebook and imagined I was answering it as an in-class essay, just getting my thoughts out and giving support for them as fast as I could. This will be step one. Step two is transcribing this on the computer. And step three is condensing and editing it into a final product.

Inch by inch…

Can it really be here already? Summer went by so fast and yet it was endless… And that’s why I feel so unprepared for school to start full time again.

I’m nervous and excited but I really just want to be on the other side of it. So to keep myself in the present more, and not be down about school, I’m going to keep doing what I’m doing, which is work and travel. Whenever I can. If I don’t drastically change my schedule then maybe I won’t be hit by it as hard.

Wish me luck!

Self-fulfilling prophecy or insight from past experiences? My clinical psych class concludes with a group project that discusses the way clinical research is presented in the popular media. I am in the “get shit done and fast” mode and the two other people in my group want to meet constantly and do everything together, which I think is soooo ineffective and I’ve told them so. We compromised, or at least it was supposed to be a compromise. I gave up a Saturday afternoon to host our first meeting with the understanding that we’d accomplish a lot and virtually have the project finished by the end of the day. They came at noon and left at 1:15. What was the point of that? We didn’t accomplish anything that could not have been done over the phone or email, or with the ten minute break time during class. I am FUMING. And ready to do the project myself.