love my body

first i need some sleep to keep me awake
after that i need for time to stand still, so i can read a book and do everything i want to without all the side effects

don called me fat
hes an idiot

i have been making sure to moisturize my skin each night and to brush my teeth. i am getting somewhat more comfortable with myself, but i still feel ackward having people look at me. i wonder what they see?

its so hard to look at myself and be able to see anything good. All i really see right now is my legs bulging out and a bit of fat hanging off of my arms. Several people have told me that i am pretty, but i cant believe a single word that they say. I cant even understand why they are friends with me. i wish i could see what they see and understand what i look like from an outsiders perspective