i want to fall in love with someone who loves me as much as i love them!

at the end of high school i think that it is high time that i go and develop a high school crush that never will and never can be anything. im fairly sure he actually likes someone else, but at this point its not him that matters, its the fact that i have to have a completely outragous crush that will make me a fool.
maybe this will uncover the secrets of all the lost souls i dont typically feel much pity for

i feel horrible about how things have happened this last week. 3 different people asked me out, but i none of them had any idea of what was going on. they all were just confused little boys that wanted to have someone say that they were going to be alright. they need a friend more than anything

people now think of me as having impossible standards, but i really dont. 1) i dont want to date someone that i know i would break their heart 2) i dont want some one month fling to happen that would just have some guy trying to get in my pants

im not rushing anything, and i want to somehow express to people that

this isnt happening anytime soon
i dont know what im doing wrong
but no guy even bothers looking at me
its not that big of a deal, im only in high school, its not like love is going to come along anytime soon. i just wish i had someone sometimes

if only life were that easy to find someone like that.
i seemed to be doomed to a hopeless romantic. How much longer must i chace love?