I need to analyze less immediatly. Life will just not be enjoyable if you analyze every minute detail, every tone, everything.
THis boy told my friend he is interested in meeting a girl, and my friend suggested me. After seeing pictures he deemed me “cute.” I saw him at the cafeteria and talked and made a few jokes and i thought it went off perfectly. To be completely honest, I kind of got ahead of myself and imagined us dating, or something crazy like that.
Well him, me, my freind and this other guy were supposed to go to dinner. My friend calls that boy and he sounds very distancy-ish and point of the matter is, he cancels. He says hsi friend is sick(and the friend truly is sick) but made no really effort to change the date to make suer we do it again.
OUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Immediatly i was filled with pain, thoughts of being hideous, thoughts about how horrible i am, or maybe i should have dressed cuter..orr
but then i realized, “just shut up.”
Seriously, SHUT UP.
Who cares?! its his loss, be his friend, live your life, who needs a boy, or someone to dictate how YOU feel about YOU. If he thinks i’m uglgy, so be it! But why should IIIII feel ugly about myself??
so yeah, this thought is leaving my head.
Now.
