be fearless

To day I got a quote to fly to London in easter next year. I think my boyfriend will break up with me, but I need to know if what I had there was real and if it is its worth it – if its not at least I wont live my life wondering

Things I would do if I knew I couldn’t fail,
- Fly to england and see if he still loves me
- Get honors
- Run a marathon
- TRAIN and get super fit
- Learn to speak french, spanish and japanese
- Sky Dive, Bungy jump
- Start my own business
- Design clothes
- Go into event management
- Write for a magazine
- Save my brother from himself
- Tell my Dad what I think about him leaving
- Be honest with my boyfriend
- Be a dancer
- Buy a one way ticket somewhere and wander the earth
- Fall in love
- Deal with all of my past hurts
- Learn about things (music, art, literature) I feel are beyond me
- Play the violin
- Be a black belt
- Be an actress
- Make my Mum happy
- Be TIDY and ORGANISED
- Learn to cook
- Drive a Motorcycle (instead of my silly car)
- Sing in front of a big crowd
- Horse Ride
- Go to med school
- Find faith and purpose
- Paint
- Have a child
- A billion other things

A lot of these things don’t seem scary but I guess the reason I am not doing them can only be fear

I am going to go and watch the scariest movies I can find as I am a WUSS wen it comes to them!!

I fearlessly learnt to snowboard last week, throwing my self off the biggest run the second day after I learnt, my bf said I should be careful this goal doesnt turn into being reckless!! But one thing is for sure you feel like you cant do it during, but afterwards woohoo

Ok so I suppose the big question now is what am I afraid of

So far all i can think of is,
Bungy jumping
going to Spookers

they seem sort of trivial, but i dont think im afraid of the usual “big” things, im not scared of death, of losing ppl, they are inevitable facts of life

I am scared of being tied down or regretting my life choices wen im 40

I have always thort the worst thing in life is to be afraid, but wen i look at it im afraid of lots! I dont want to not feel fear, but I want to feel it, and conquer it, so i no there is nothing i cant do, and they is nothing I get held back from