earn more money

yep, starting full time at this new place next week. Overall although I’ll be earning more than in the old minimum wage job, I’ve lost out on tax credits (not because I’ll be earning a lot, I won’t, but because of the type of course son is doing) and child maintenance even though son is only 18 and still at college, so I’m actually going to be a whole lot worse off. From my earnings half (£100) will go on rent and tax, a third (£33) of remainder will go on travel to work, a third on utilities (reduced through sheer necessity) leaving me a third for groceries (even only allowing £20 for that for myself and my son) and anything else. :( I only hope that in time I can get some overtime or promotion.

earning more per hour but it’s costing me more to get to work and i’m only part time at moment. (that’s what i wanted) but think will need to go full time. wish i could find hours that allow me to have a life !

28 MARCH

_M. Scott Peck:
The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers_

Since last entry here have done a few things,
boss has been away so it’s been a relief, and I’ve moved forward on some of my goals, career related included.
Relationship also, the above quote is so true.

boss again.

Asked me about one job when I was working on another.
I answered him, told him.
He asked me again how I got on with it.
Told him I’d not been able to work on it yet.
Then he said – I know that, but how did you get on with it ?

I asked him how I was supposed to answer that.
He said perfectly good question and what way was that to speak to my boss?
I told him I was concentrating on a very complex part of my current job and I had answered him. I told him he’d asked mr 3 times – why ?
And he said just to get a response out of you.
He said he worried about me.

I said don’t be and he started screaming at me ‘Don’t be ? Of course I’m worried about you !!!’ and said he’d speak to me later.

I tried to stand up for myself but ended up in tears.

This is because I didn’t go along with the stuff about my wages last week. For days I’ve kept it pleasant enough for my sake but he’s thought I didn’t respond adequately today and he’s putting me in my place.

I wanted to walk out, but I need another job or state benefits.
Next day he wasn’t in all day but I hav to go back tomorrow.
He’s making out that there’s something wrong with me but it’s his bullying that’s the problem.

Boss told me he’d pay me the money. He then berated bank & argued when I said problem occurred because he paid wages late.

He gave me formal letter (‘got to be formal cos it’s business but don’t worry about it’).

Letter blamed me, said he’d met his comittments but would make one off goodwill payment to me, but warned me he’d not be held accountable should it happen in future as I shouldn’t have set up payments to leave my account day after wage is due in.

When I told him it’s been that way for 8 yrs he said I was lucky.

After a great deal of agony on my part, I said I couldn’t sign it as I didn’t agree with it.
He said I didn’t need to agree with it, just sign it so I could get the money. Then he got angry, almost cried, said he was really upset and walked out. I stayed calm.

He came back & kept telling me he’d paid me on the Thursday. I actually began to believe him and said I’d contact my bank because there’s no way I should have been charged then – and after spending a week denying this – he said – it was the Friday (ie too late)!

Having very bad problems at work with boss.
Taking a lot just to go and get through the day especially as he now ‘works’ 2 ft away from me.
Constantly patronises, refutes any answers, belittles my experience and skills and sits playing about on the computer then tells everyone how hard he works & of all the hours he puts in.
Then doesn’t pay the wages on time so I end up with colossal bank charges and bills not paid. And refuses to accept responsibility, as if I’m just trifling him with a minor inconvenience rather than half my wage gone on charges I shouldn’t have had.

He thinks I’m being beligerent in speaking to him about this, but it’s taken a lot of courage from me because I am afraid of confrontation with ‘authority’ people.

I’m trying to push myself through the fear to stand up for myself, but it’s hard when I feel bullied and he holds the power.