figure out what i want to do with my life

Well, I sent a letter to email address given at the ‘contact us’ page of the library, to ask for career advice when it comes to becoming a librarian.

I talked to an academic adviser at my college about what I want to do with my future, and told him about how I’ve been thinking I might want to be a librarian. And I learned just how long and how much work that is going to take. It’s daunting, and I’m not sure of myself. But it’s something to work towards for now. I went ahead and changed my major to English, which I’m happy about since it’s what I’m interested in and why I want to be a librarian in the first place. But I’m still trying to explore other options. Like something that would help me find a job while I work towards a career, something like being a secretary. I’ll continue to look into it.

The more I think about it the more sure I am that I want to be a librarian. This is the first time I felt any bit of certainty about what I want to do with my life career-wise. And even if it changes somewhere along the line, I now have something solid to work towards. Which is all I really need at this point. I feel really good about this.

Right now the only thing I know I want in my future is to get married, own a home, and raise a family of my own. But that’s not enough. I need to find some idea of what I want to do with my life. I’m going to school again, and that’s a start. But I don’t know what I want to major in. I don’t know what sort of career I want. Right now the only thing I can think of that seems feasible is a librarian. I don’t know if that’s what I want, but I just need to have some sort of goal in mind, so I’m not just working aimlessly. But I do feel so aimless…