be satisfied

Well, I’m pretty happy at the moment. Not really sure why… I’m looking forward to going home and I’m also having an awesome time in China so I don’t want to leave. Balances out I guess. I just feel kind of peaceful, I don’t want anything right now.

I made a list today of things that make me happy:

Reading
Watching good movies
Walking in the mountains or next to rivers
Dancing to good music
Playing magic and drinking wine with friends
Throwing parties
Going for coffee and chats
Buying pretty shoes
Enjoying music
Trying new things
Going out for meals
Being healthy
Meeting new people

It’s only things that I really enjoy doing, not specfic things that I want to improve or learn. Sometimes those things are connected, but I didn’t want to write any goals.
I realised that I can have all of these things, I don’t need to run around looking for some perfect life or trying to be perfect at everything.

It put things into perspective a little bit…

This one isn’t going so well. I want to do everythign and expect myself to be perfect so how can I feel satisfied?
I feel for one small thing I acheive that I can do in one day, there’s a million other things I didn’t do, or it just raised the bar.
I had a weekend of relaxing, until today where I just felt like I hand’t acheived anything had to keep trying.
When I’m doing something, I expect it to already be done by default.
I should have already lost the weight I want to, be fit, be able to play guitar, have finished all my work, have finsihed writing my book and done all of my game acheivements.
I do usually enjoy doing exercise, trying to learn the guitar, (ok i don;t like work stuff), writing my book and playing games. I just don’t know how to focus more on the doing and less on the goals.

Today, I decided not to make myself to anything (except go to work of course).
I slept when I wented, spent my time as I felt like and ate what I wanted. It went ok….