Never give up

I sometimes struggle to undersstand the fine line between acceptance and giving up. When i accept the things i cannot change does that mean that i have given up? Accepting things definietley brings peace, but what is it inside me that keeps on fighting even after i thought i have found peace? Why do i fight? I just cant give up but i wish i could.

I am in that desert and want to get out. I need an angel to give me reason to. I’m slowly but surely losing all of mine.

EVERYDAY IN EVERYWAY I AM GETTING BETTER AND BETTER.

IT MAY NOT FEEL LIKE IT, BUT I NEED TO NOT GIVE UP ON EVERYTHING. I FEEL I AM. I AM HOPELESSLY LOST IN EVERYTHING I AM DOING. I DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT OUT OF LIFE, I DONT KNOW IF I AM TRYING TO DO SOMETHING I CANT. IF I MAKE ALLOWANCES FOR MYSELF TO JUST GIVE UP EVERYTHING ALL THE TIME.
I DONT KNOW, I NEED AN ANGEL GUIDE. I AM SO HOPELESS I WOULD GUIDE MYSELF INTO THE DESERT AND NEVER RETURN.