I’ve been giving a lot of thought to this goal. At first I just picked it because I saw it on someone else’s list and it looked like a good thing to do. I didn’t think about what achieving it might mean or how to get there.
So, the first thing I think I need to do is figure out what my fears are when it comes to love and then work on eliminating them. I’m talking about romantic love here because I’m not afraid of love when it comes to friends or family or pets.
Here are my fears:
rejection
criticism
getting left for someone else
getting abused
being unable to give the relationship everything it needs
being unable to fully relax or be myself
feeling i have to change who i am to keep the relationship together
I want to be able to have a relationship that I don’t feel like I’m fighting for everyday. I don’t want to always feel like the slightest mistake I make could ruin everything. It’s been so long since I was in a healthy romantic relationship that I’m afraid I’ve forgotten how one works.
So really, I don’t have a clue as to where to start with this.
