i am so bad on this goal. i did the danish and lost 5 kilos in 7 das .. probably motly wter anyway.. generally this loosing stuff was making mefell on tarack and motivated and was keepig me on the trackafter.. but now i think there is a dpeer issue that i did notmind and got maniac with sugar stuff after. i am kind of in a phase i donotgive a sh*it of how i look. my face skin clothes ..blahh .. i relocated to a nwe conuntry .. and to a much smaller city.. i am not motivated to look good. or even to be out and about.. this is a problem right.. and i do not know.. i am loosing my motivation to theoutside world and therefore my inner world.. arghh wahts that. and why i am ranting here.. it seems to be that i will hit a hard getting 30 birthday soon.. come on girl.. this is not you.. you have to be intrested, inspried, excited and look forward for things.. otherwise we both know it doesnotwork for you ;)
gaiaiag has written 7 entries about this goal
with what i eat and sugary and unhelaty stuff and plummetered to an unhelathy 68-69. Now to get rid of sugar addiction I am going cold turkey with sugar for 14 days.. I follow danish hospital diet that will get ridd of my usage habits for
- sugary things
- big portions
Also This is really low calories but I will try to go to gym as well.. after 14 days I will not go back to using sugary stuff just fruits.. few alcohol and more gym. i got a lot of gym clothes and simig stuff.. so it will motivate me i guesss… and i subscribed to an amazing gym
i was using the same weight meauring stufffor4 years.. now i moved fromthehouse and i literally lost the perception:S:S: i know it sound funny or stpidbut really. i eat and eat and gain but it does not touch my concious.. i was using 2 kilos up approach( do not ask me waht is , soething sutpid i didi to motivate me pushing he weight stuff 2 kilos front and beliving it after becaus eit has been so long) ow from the momnet i camne in it showed me as 63. but i do not kno how much i was.. i guess iwas 66 and this measure showed 63.. now i eat and eat and i became 65 which would 68 .OH MYYYYYYY.. i ameatig my 10th chocolate and grabbing the 11th now because i amshocked
the last post says that i have quitted smoking.. lieeeeer’!!! i am smoking currently.. again.. altough it is very very very bad for my health.. i am not sure i can.. i tried to quit and put on kilos.. than i started to smoke again (not because i put on weight but it was so hard form my nervous state) but because i got sed to eating i continued to eaat.. put onmo re andmore. at last i saw 71. then i made a diet.. went back to 65.. now i am 67 but i still want to go to 60.. and i will becaue i feel sooo much prettier happy when i am not a blob and i can control my eating..
i do nto know.. voila as ti was toooo easy it is getting easier :S:S:S:S?1
i am 65 now. ion the morning.. i have been always eating not sooo much but i was passing myuself to sweets, chocolate,, and bakeries some time.. for a couple of days i di not sneak too much .,. just a lot of alcohol and nuts..
the worst thing is i am not smoking.. i am quitting.. has been 3 weeks now.. and thin of how much i have been munching. i am muching on carrots and cucmber and tomatoes.. grr my stomach hurts..
.. after i quit i saw 68 on the stuff.. i have not been at this high weigth for ages..
now i am 65 -66 . but because i am going into a new routine of being too it makes me more self aware soo i do not eat too much carbs
i do not know whe not smoeking is regular thing and if i ever return to carb foods what will happen to be.. i want to be 60 not a wobling 65..
i was not able to.. man i actyually gained.. wtf..
sooo why do i eat more.. because there is thigns in the house..
because i am bored and do not know waht to do..
because i do not know.. i am a bit dpressed..
sooo i need to get on track.. i ma changing the name to be 60 kg instead of 2010.. kets see whan i will tick it..
sicne this has been my goal// seriously i was better when this was not my goal.. tell me who likes to self destruct sneakily.. ok 18 days left.. 18 days left to finish this stupid cyberwoogie too.. get hold of what you want.. it is you who needs to be stable and strong and do not waste time on things you want to do .. you do not have the luxury to waste time.. i do nto know why.. or tell me you want to spend time doing nothing and then it will be somthing doable to you.. but you have to say that with your own words.