Have my first kiss

there was this guy and i had a good thing with him for about a week.sounds short, i know, but it had been coming for a while. all my friends except one hate him and they told me he was a player but i didnt think i should pass up the opportunity to be with him if it csme up. He tried to kiss me at school but we were at my locker at home time and i couldnt move an inch for all the people so that didnt happen. then, he told me that he was going to ask me out and i told him that, even though i wanted to be with him, i’d have to say no because my parents are strict and they’d pretty much kick me out if i ever told them i had a boyfriend. So then, he heard from one of my friends that i was cut coz i thought i’d messed up all my chances to ever be with him, and he swaid i hadnt messed up my chnaces. So here wasd me with my hopes up again, and three days later, after the confession that he liked me, he has a girlfriend. Just some random chick. And even though i know im not good looking, she’s worse. and that makes me feel so downgraded and pretty much like shit. And he isnt even trying to hide how much he’s hurt me. Sad thing is, i still cant stop thinking about him. I really just want to be with him. And even tho i know how much of a player he is,...... i’d still wanna go out with him if i could. But he’s a f*head and that’s what i need to remember.And im not usually crazy over guys like i am right now, but there’s something in my mind that still wishes he had been my first kiss.

does on the cheek count??????coz i’ve had plenty of them lately….. ;D

i just want to be able to walk up to the person i love and give them a sloppy one right on the mouth. but wqait, i dont love any one, and even if i did they wouldnt love me. what hope have i got!!!!!??? :(