So, in the dream I had last night, there was a part near the end in which I went to a portable and met up with two people from my scholastic past, one of them a respected professor, another his protege. I can’t tell you enough how well I hold these people in my esteem, especially the professor, and especially in his ability to look at life critically and come back with a fairly comprehensive, clear, and biting view of things as they are on the ground. He’s very good at taking on things that are so big that most people never see them in their entirety and using that vision to explain the small, the right here, the right now, the immediate why driven by the unseen what.
While there, he got angry, and to comfort him, I gave him a great big hug – it was a loving, intimate embrace that really connected us for just a moment – and then I went out, returned to my car, and eventually drove off.
So, according to the dream dictionary, the hug would be a kind of drawing closer of parts of my personality which the person represents. Given he’s a professor of biology, which I just recently took a degree in, and given that I left after the dream hug, I think it means that my flirtation with science may be coming to an end. The thing that drove me to study the subject has been satisfied in a life-altering way, and now I can move on to the next thing.
I fell asleep thinking, maybe I don’t want to be a scientist, and I think this dream was a kind of answer. It says to me, you’ve become reconciled to this huge aspect of life which was troubling you so much, and now you can make an exit from this path that doesn’t seem to be going anywhere. After all, if science was my true path, I think all the opportunities that have landed in my lap would have included one which came to fruition, and I would be doing it already. As it were, that’s not how things worked out.
Now I have to wonder, where was I going? I feel so much relief in admitting this to myself in a way that isn’t a failure that this question is downright exciting at present. Hopefully, it will be fun to find out.