reach my goal weight

It’s been a long while since I have been on. And of course I have gained, and lost- and gained, and lost. So I am once again within 10 pounds of my goal. It is a lit lower than previous because of the activities I have been doing. I am not so worried about weight or the scale for once I have actually been staying away. I have been measuring every other week and weighing myself maybe every 2 weeks. Which is not as hard as I thought it would be.

After reading my other entries I can see how much my life has changed, and food is always a factor. Not necessarily emotional eating but just things being out of control.

I think ultimately it is not even my weight that makes me unhappy- it’s just a contributor to the anxiety and frustration in other areas of my life!

I am at a pretty good place right now, so I am staying positive with that, and a better goal maybe than weight loss itself is self control. Something for me to think about.

WELL HERE I AM .I HAVE BEEN NEGLECTFUL TO THIS SITE FOR A BIT,DUE TO ALL OTHER CONFUSION ELSWHERE IN MY LIFE.BUT I AM HAPPY TO REPORT THAT I AM WITHIN 10 POUNDS OF MY GOAL WEIGHT.WHICH WOULD SEEM ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE WHEN I STARTED.I HAVE HAD SO MUCH GOING ON AND I’D LIKE TO SAY THAT THE LOSS IS DUE TO MY HARD WORK AND EFFORT.SOME IS TRUE. I HAVE MADE ALOT OF EFFORT.ALTHOUGH TODAY WAS THE FIRST TIME I HAD GONE TO THE GYM IN 3 MONTHS.WITH SUMMER VACATION/KIDS/MOVING/MARITALSEPERATION/TRAVELING/AND LOOKING FOR A JOB AND JUST TAKING TIME TO MYSELF, IT DIDNT FIT IN MUCH ANYWHERE.I WISH I HAD INCORPERATED IT A COUPLE TIMES A WEEK THOUGH.IT IS MAKING GETTING BACK HARD!BUT I DID IT.I LOVED IT!AND ILL BE BACK TOMORROW.I REALLY ENJOY WORKING OUT, SO FOR ME IT’S NOT TORTURE.I WAS WOEKING OUT ALOT BEFORE I WENT ON VAC ATION THOUGH, SO EVEN WITH MY WEIGHT LOSS MY BODY IS NOT AT ITS BEST.I CANT REMEMB ER WHAT I WEIGHED WHEN I FIRST STARTED DOING THIS.BUT TOO DATE FROM THE POINT WHEN I INITIALLY STARTED KICKING MY ASS I AHVE LOST 68 POUNDS…NOW, IN THE LAST 6 MONTHS IT HAS BEEN STEADY AND IVE LOST 45.NOW THAT I AM SO CLOSE..AND IM IN SINGLE DIGITCLOTHINGI WANT TO WORK HARDER SO THAT I DO NOT GAIN BACK.EVEN IF I AHVE TO HAVE A 10 POUND GOAL FOREVER AND I STAY THE SAME WEIGHT.ILL BE HAPPY WITH MYSELF.I AM ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO WILL ALWAYS HAVE TO WATCH IT.SO.ILL BE PROBUBLY WRITING NOW MORE FOR SUPPORT SO I DONT LET MYSELF GO:)I HOPE YOU ARE ALL DOING GOOD AS WELL !!

OK. SO I AM DOING EXTREMELY WELL. PROBUBLY NO THANKS TO THE CHANGES IN MY LIFE .BUT NEVER THE LESS I AM WITHIN 10-12 LBS OF MY GOAL WEIGHT . I HAVEN’T BEEN TO THE GYM THOUGH IN ALMOST 9 WEEKS. I SERIOUSLY HAVE CONSIDERED TGAKING UP BEING A MOVER.SINCE I HAVE BEEN MOVING ALMOST ALL MY OWN THINGS AND DOING UJNPACKING FOR BASICALLY 2 DIFFERENT PLACES, I HAVE NOT HAD TIME TO FEEL HUNGRYTO COMPLAIN ABOUT DIETING, TO WORRY ABOUT DIETING , AND I AM SO SORE I FEEL LIKE I AM TRAINING FOR BIGGER AND BETTER THINGS.I HOWEVER AM NOT COMPLAINING.I DON’T MIND DOING IT.I’M GLAD THAT IF AT LEAST I DON’T HAVE TIME TO GO TO THE GYM ,I AM STILL PHYSICALLY CHALLENGING MYSELF.MY LIMBS MAY BE SAYING SOMETHING ELSE. I AM SMALLER NOW THAN I HAVE BEEN SINCE I WAS PREGNANT WITH MY FIRST CHILD. WHICH IS A NICE FEELING.I WANT TO GET THIS LAST 10 POUNDS OFF FAST , BUT I AM BEING REALISTIC. THAT OLD RULE OF THE LAST 10. SO WE’LL SEE. I AM HOLDING OLN TO THE IDEA OF OLNE I GET BACK INTO A REGULAR ROUTINE AT THE GYM IKLL SHAPE UP AND LOSE 5 POUNDS JUST FROM MY BODY BOUNCING BACK.WHATS HARD TO ACCEPT IS , I’LL NEVER HAVE A PRE-CHILD BEARING BODY BACK. YOU KINDA THINK OH-IM GONNA BE SKINNY-—WOOHOOO—THEN YOU REALISE YES ITS TRUE.I AM PRETTY SKINNY, WITH CLOTHES ON ! :) I KNOW I KNOW. IT’S ONE OF THOSE THINGS.I GUESS THE LONGER I WORK AT IT.I STILL AM HAPPY AND OPTIMISTIC !

ok I HAVE NOT WEIGHED MYSELF IN OVER 2 WEEKS.A GOOD THING PROBUBLY.BUT IT’S STILL ON MY MIND.IM HOLDING OUT FOR ONE MORE SAT, THE FEAR OF BEING LET DOWN..I SEE A SIGNIFICANT DIFFERENCE, BUT NOT CRAZY.I FOT MY CLOTHES BETTER AND I CAN WEAR THE SMALLEST PAIR OF JEANS I OWN,SOME DONT LOOK AS GOOD AS OTHERS BUT STILL.ALSO IM A JRS SIZE AWAY FROM SINGLE DGITS JEANS!YAY..IM SURE I HAVE MORE TIME TO GO BUT, RIGHT NOW I HAVE A 15 LB GOAL FOR ABOUT 5-6 WEEKS.I THINK I CAN HANDLE IT IF I WORK FOR IT!

So I am doing better. I am losing regularly.I guess while it’s happening, it’s never fast enough. I am trying to focus on changing my habits rather than starving or over working.I figure slow and steady can’t be that bad.If I can look at it that way every day it’s better then beating myself down so I bingeout and stop working out because im sick of working to hard.I am down to only having about 20- more to go-id like 25 but i think that may be pushing it.more than lbs though I have lost inches.Its incredible how different I feel in my back and ribs..i have bones again that are visible when i breathe!yay
i do feel like i need to be rejuvenated(hence—im here).So hopefully seeing something in writing will keep me going!im waiting for the day I can say I only have 5-10 pounds to go :)

so im getting somewhere..yay..i am down about 20 lbs since i started again…i have about 30 to go..i think.im happy with my progress and im pretty motivated so i guess its all good.i wish it was easier to stay focused.i have so much crap going on and so much to think about ,its hard to keep track of normal routine.whats normal anyway..but im moving along, im loking for a kick of extra motivation this week.its silly.

with drawing from carbohydrates is like withdrawing for an addictive drug!ive been so mean and bicthy!im eating only fruits and veggies..and i am quite full_~ the problem is my body really wants to eat tortilla chips and queso!!!!i have never went on such a strict diet—although this is only a 9 day start up to lead into a low fat low cal diet to detox my body.quite frankly if anyone had told me I would ever be moddy i dont know who could have agreed.i am a nice person and i get along with everyone.well not so sweet these last 2 days.im surprised my husband doesnt hate me yet!ive been pretty mean.so my goal today is too make an extra effort to not only watch what goes in my mouth but what comes out!

well morning actually. i amde it to afternoon and i still feel good! im waiting for 500 to roll around to go back to the gym to get extra cardio in!..the test will be going out and finding alcohol i can actually drink1

so..i was on a roll down 52 lbs.. well its ok im back up 15 which leaves me here back at 45,with a knee injury…im figuring ill concentrate on what im eating first off and do low impat exercise and hope that works.id like to try and slide that 15 lbs off in 2-3 weeks not totally unreasonable.looking for moral support:)