compile a 100-things-about-me list

I think I’m a shallow person. I try not to be and most people would say I’m actually one of the most selfless people they know (I’m associating depth with self worth here), but I can’t help but feel like its just a front. For what, I don’t know.

My opinion varies, often from day to day. Some days I’ll think its a great idea and then the next I think its a terrible. Hmm.

i’ve never flown through the air. not even with the greatest of ease. maybe next summer.

i have such a strained relationship with my mom and it makes me unbelievably sad to admit that. growing up, she always made me feel so special and independent and like i could do anything. my parents divorced when i was 16, though, and she moved out of my house when i was 18 (my dad moved back in). since that happened, things got so odd between us. there was a 6 month period where i didn’t see her or speak to her at all. she became homeless last year and moved back in with my dad and me and things seemed to get a little better, but she moved out about 3 months ago and things are back to being weird. i miss the way she was when i was little.

i love swimming and i’m actually not bad at it (i’ve saved 3 people before :-D). when i took it in high school, though, i was disgusted by it (for many reasons) and stopped swimming for a good 3 or 4 years. now im back to loving it, though.

sometimes i think the only reason im really friends with these people is because i dont have any other friends. i LOVE them, but (and i feel like a bitch for saying this), i just don’t LIKE them.

i like to listen to talk radio shows that are geared towards men….don and mike, opie and anthony, howard stern. sigh

Its my tragic flaw. I put things off until its just about too late. I found some old subliminal message casettes that are supposed to help you stop procrastinating. maybe i’ll stick them in before i go to bed (doesn’t that remind you of that episode of friends where chandler listens to the tapes about being a strong, independent woman? lol).

I’m getting my masters in chemistry, right? This is why. I started out pre-med. Senior year rolled around and I was too chicken to actually apply to med school (fear of rejection….I guess I’d just rather not know), and I heard one of my professor say that most chemists get their masters for free. So, I applied for my Masters and got in, all because I could do it for free. How stupid.

Until I was about 7 years old, I wanted to be a figure skater when I grew up. What’s funny is, I’ve never even been ice skating. After that, I wanted to be a veterinarian and then a pediatrician. Now, I don’t know what I want to be.