smile more

I am ALL SMILES

:D

I smile quite often now, just walking around by myself I wear a little grin. & It’s all thanks to this one guy I met last week, he’s amazing. He makes me so HAPPY

this is hard.

I was looking through my goals recently & it was a little discouraging because I saw this one, & Realized how little progress I had made. I came to the conclusion that I don’t smile unless I’m really happy about something, simply because the thought of smiling when I’m not super happy doesn’t cross my mind. But i’m realizing more & more, when I’m not smiling, it’s not because I don’t have anything particular to smile about, It’s because I’m feeling like shit. Sometimes I tell myself I’m okay when I’m not. But guess what? These last 4 days or so have been so great for me, I can’t remember the last time I was this consistently happy! So I’ve had a little grin on my face all day, & I’ve been passing it on to anyone who will take it. I smiled at this guy in the hall today, I’ve never talked to him but I’m pretty sure he’s the most attractive being on the planet. I surprised myself when I did that; I usually don’t smile that much at all, let alone have the guts to make eye contact & smile at a hot guy. So yeah, I think I’m making a lot of progress. If things keep going like this I may be able to check this one as done!

It’s been two days since I started working on this goal, & i find it does come pretty easily to me, I just needed somewhere to start. Now every time something nice happens or I see something nice I don’t hesitate to smile. thismorning I have been all smiles. I let my dogs in & they were so happy to see me, they were jumping around & barking, that put a huge smile on my face. & it won’t go away!

people always ask me what’s wrong or tell me to smile. I’m not frowning, or at least i didn’t think i was frowning until they told me that. people say why dont you ever smile? & i know thats exaggerating, because I do smile. But i only smile when I’m really genuinely amused by something. believe me, sometimes I can’t even hold back a smile, but i feel sort of dumb just walking around grinning about something. But i guess its nice for other people to see me smile. & the more i think about it, It does make me a little happier when I see someone else smile. So i’m going to try smiling more, even if Im not particularly happy, I’m just ehh. Then hey, at least there’s nothing for me to be frowning about, & just that fact is something to smile about!