Feel good about myself

Since Wednesday Ive felt good about my self.. its been two days and Ive felt good…

On Wednesday I met one of my friends, which is lIKE THE perfect person to be around with when you feel down..
she is constantly telling me how pretty I look, and the thing is, it seems natural coming from her.. is not fake or anything, so It makes me feel good.. plus she is an amazing photographer, so she took some pics of me.. and she managed to make me look good.. really good.. and I just felt soo confident..

today I went to work and I was pretty happy with my self..
I played around with my hair, and put some feathers.. I know it sounds weird but I think they look cool, and I had one costumer complement them.. IT WAS PRETTY awesome
Tomorrow I am going to take the whole day for my self.. I am going to wake up late.. do exercise and I am going to go shopping by my self.. now that I feel good I want to go and try some new things, maybe Ill do my nails or something, I dont know..

I guess part of this weird mood.. is that I did my hair on Wednesday.. and It still looks awesome. I straighten it, AND I realize how long it is.. which also makes me really happy! Plus I started to do exercise again!! and eat healthier.. although I ate some chocolate today hehe but is ok!!!!

ok… so I am not perfect! .. I constantly feel overweight .. eventhough I am in a healthy weight. I am not super skinny and I am not fat.. I am just in the middle.. I feel ugly.. but I am normal looking. I am not a monster.. and offcourse I am not the next angelina jolie! ... I am clumsy, I am soo sensitive…. sometimes I act like I was 15 years old!, I dont know how to wear makeup!!! and I dont own any pair of heeles.. I love food!!!I cried for everything!!! everything.. if I am happy, mad, sad… or just bored! I am not the smartest person.. but hey.. I am not a complete moron!

I used to always look at the bad things about me!! eventhough I have everything to be happy!! (knock on wood)but lately Ive realize that god gave me this body.. so either I hate it or I try to love it… its really hard when you see this perfect models.. and this perfect girls in the street.. who just look unreal… too perfect for their own good… and then I see people like ME.. normal looking… but you know what I am tired of feeling crappy.. I am tierd of worrying about having a stupid boyfriend.. so what if I am 20 and single.. hell is not the end of the world.. Lately something just clicked.. I mean it really clicked… I am starting to like my self.. just the way I am.. 5’5 and 133 lbs..clumsy, a cry baby, food lover, single, average looking… but you know what they are other great things about me which I am slowly discovering.. I dont want to say that I love my self completly.. bc its only been like two weeks since ive been feeling this way…. but something has changed.. I mean I see my self differently, I started to walk with good posture.. I walked soo bad.. and I am slowly practicing.. everytime I remind my self that I am beauitfull just the way I am.. I know is corny but it works.. and that eventhough i am single.. there is someone outthere waiting for me.. but first I have to learn how to love my self..