So I kinda screw things with a good friends. She was all ways there for me, but at time she was very clingy.. extremely clingy. I felt the need to get away from her, I really can’t deal with clingy people. It became so much, that anything she said would bug me! So I felt it was best to be apart for a little while, b.c I didn’t want to end up in a fight…
I did end up being A little rude when I shouldn’t have(although she would say things that she shoulnd’t have said either). I then realized my mistake and changed the way I was acting, b.c no matter how clingy she could be It really didn’t mean I had the right to be rude.
So everything was going in well until something happen! In fact it started by the end of the summer, I really can’t explain what it is, stop talking to me on msn, Wouldn’t like text msg when I did. Even during school b.c we have some of the same classes, wouldn’t even sit with me or anything (now I sound like the clingy one lol). I know it was partly my fault, but we were cool before school started, and I kind ask her to forgive me if I WAS EVER mean to her.
The other day She ask me about this concert I WANTED to go for the longest time (and she KNEW I WANTED TO GO), and she told me she was asking me b.c her friend from another class (which I know too) wanted to go with her. I WAs like wtf? I told her a million times to come with me! A million times to come with me! and?? nothing…
but for other things she will call me! like shopping, and she tries to make plans with me! I honestly don’t get it!!
I just wished that we could be close, but not as close!! I know I might be contradicting my self, but I was really hurt when she told me about the concert! and didn’t even bother to invite me. I shouldn’t have attitude toward her, but I changed and no matter how mad I would be I would’ve never ever leave her alone! never! if she didn’t have someone to hang out with, she knew that she never had to really ask me! she could just hang with me.
I don’t know what to do, I feel so lonely.. I mean yesterday I felt so lonely. thIS WEEK is my first week of classes, and I have friends in all my classes (including her and other people) but I still feel lonely, is that even possible? To feel lonely when you are surrounded with Sooo many people? I guess that’s the worst part, being around friends and still feel alone..
ughghghgh
