stop worrying so much

oh god, I had this thing tomorrow, I have to meet up with this guy I am designing something for, and I am freaking out!!!...

ughghghghg.. I just want to get it over with .!

i WANT to stop worrying about my looks….About every stupid detail..If I make a mistake, so what?? Don’t we all? I just feel like.. grr like I am alone in this, you know> that if I do something wrong, I am the only idiot who could possibly make such mistake!

I just need to sit back, and relax, take things slowly, live each day, I am constatly worrying about tomorrow, and the next day, and the next day.. If I could just live life one step at a time.. I think It WOULD just be so much easier!!!

Lately ive been worrying about my future, I am almost gratudating college this is MY LAST YEAR.. I mean this is MY LAST SEMESTER.. I just feel that I am to young and that I dont have what it takes to be in “the real world” I AM SO SCARED, I CONSTANTLY THINK ABOUT IT, IF I AM GOING TO GET A JOB, IF I AM GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANY JOB.. I am going to do my internship with at this great place, is not what I was expecting because i will be working in an area that dosent interest me that much, but I think is a great place and i THINK i will learn a lot, but still I AM SO NERVOUS.. i am so nervous because what iF I SCREW UP? WHAT IFFFF.. AND THE FUNNY PART IS THAT IM LUCKY ENOUGH TO HAVE PARENTS THAT WANT ME TO KEEP studying SO I WILL DO A POSTGRADUATE PROGRAM SOMEWHERE ELSE.. BUT IM SO WORRY, I FEEL THAT THIS IS LIKE THE LAST TIME I CAN REALLY BE HAPPY.. i dont know Im just so scare to be out there… I CANT SLEEP THINKING ABOUT IT.. is so horrible. and i see people and they are so relax, I THINK MAYBE ALL MY LIFE I HAD BEEN LIKE IN THIS LITTLE BUBBLE.. YOU KNOW? my parents always protected me.. so maybe thats what I am scare of.. I DONT KNOW.. OHHH IS SO BAD.. IS LIKE FOR EXAMPLE.. THE INTERNSHIP IS SOMETHING I HAVE TO DO FOR CREDIT.. AND I REALLY WANTED TO BE OVER WITH, I WANT IT TO FINISH THE HOURS AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!!! BUT WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT, THIS IS WHAT I WILL HAVE TO DO FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.. U KNOW WHAT I MEAN? I CANT JUST SAY OH WELLIM DONE WITH MY CO-OP HOURS, NOOO IS NOT LIKE THIS, WHAT IM DOING IN THAT PLACE IS WHAT I WILL HAVE TO DO FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!!i dont know.. i just want to go back to my childhood.. when u didnt have to worry about a thing..

I WORRY SOO MUCH..I WORRY IF I DON TDO THIS PEOPLE WOULD THINK OF ME THIS AND THAT WAY, I WORRY ABOUT THINGS THAT HAVENT HAPPEN, I WORRY ABOUT LIFE, ABOUT LOVE, ABOUT MY FUTURE.. everything.. i mean i cant live life when i worry soo much.. I need help .. I mean I try not to worry but it seems imposiblr when it comes otme, I mean I cant just stop worrying iknow ill probably be able to do it for one day, but ill be back again worrying about everything.. it seems that when I am more busy I worry less… so I guess I am just going to try to mantain my self busy.. mmm ahh is soo ahrd!!