lose 5 kilos

UGH JUST ate 7 slices of pizza.. DAMN IT!!!.. OK tomorrow I HAVE TO START again!>!

So, Ive been eating like crazy this past weeks. Right now I weight 59.6 which makes me really mad!! because a week or so a go I was 58! My goal is to loose at least 8 kilos in two months, sounds pretty reachable.

I’m Going to do everything, to walk 5 times a week 30 min on the treadmill, and Eat extremely healthy.

Today I have to start, yesterday I ate a whole pie by my self.!!!!!!

To be honest, I haven’t even weight my self for a long time, I know that if I weight my self and I don’t see the result that I was expecting I will be dissapointed and I will cheat really badly, so I am going really slow… I am actually walking like 40- and hour EVERY DAY. I know I can’t believe it! even if I eat like mcdonalds I will still walk.. before if I would eat something that I WASN’T supposed to, I would just over eat for the entire day b.c I felt that if I ALREADY cheat I might as well do it all day, and the next day I will go back to the “diet”.. well not any more, if I have a craving for chocolate I will eat it, and I will walk an extra mile just to make sure I burn more calories….
I haven’t really felt results, well I do have my moments in where I feel skinny but then the next minute I FEEL REALLY fat.. but oh welll….

I set a dead line for me, and its a year!!! I am hopefully going on a exchange, and I want to look my best…

I have a whole year, to tone my body and to loose at least 5 kilos.. I know I could probaly do it in less time, but I dont mind, I have no rush, I WANT TO DO IT RIGHT.>!!

It’s like.. when ever I am ready to loose them, and I start eating better… I go back to my old habits… Today I ate like 10 things of bread!! and they where each like 80 calories!! hfhfhh…. and I was doing well….

My friend might be coming, and I want to look my best… I really need to keep my self in track… Starting tomorrow.. I will have to eat healthier, start drinking more water.. doing exercise every day, it’s going to be hard…. but I need to do it.

ugh.. Finals are coming up, so stress is building up! and when i AM STRESSED OUT, I eat sooooo damn much. ! ugh its soo annoying..

My best friend might be coming in like two months so I have to start loosing my last 5 pounds. its just annoying I FEEL SO FAT sometimes, and then I feel good.. is a roller coaster. ahahahah

good luck to everyone.

OK. today I had an amazing day.. so I went shopping with one of my friends, and I went to american eagle, I was trying dresses and things like that when I decided to try jeans, I HATE trying jeans b.c they NEVER FIT ME, I look so bad in them, they feel tight and bad.. So anyways I used to be a size 12, and I WENT DOWN to a size 8! so Today I was looking for this really nice jeans, and I got a size eight, I was going to get a size six but I am like, nahh It wont fit me.. So I tried them on, and on the waist they where ok a little bit big, but they where ok, and on the legs they where huge.. so I ask the lady if she could bring me a size six, Size six was good, I WAS SOOO DAMN excited when I tried them on, A siX!! WELL that’s not all, I came out, and the lady was like, Do they fit good? and I though she was going to say that they look tight, so then she ask me if I wanted to try a size 4, bc jeans tend to stretch out… and I was like.. really U are asking me if I should go for a size four!! iT’S BEEN LIKE six years since I fit into a size 4!! So I tried them, and they where a tiny bit tight but they closed perfectly, and they feel good.. well i have them on right now, b.c I still CANt NOT BELIEVE !!!!!!!!!!
I am so happy… and I was feeling crappy last night..

yeah I am eating a bowl of ice cream.. I couldn’t helped it!! GRR I HAVE TO GET AWAY FROM this stupid cravings

I got this dress from guess, it was 85 bucks but it was 60% off.. I know awesome…

It is a very sexy black dress, and I loved it..
I got it one size small.. Although it fits I cant close it from the top part, I mean I can but then I cant breath.. ha ha

So

this will be my reward.. I want to be able to breath ha ha and fit it..

it is soo nice…

I will start working on that :)

today I wore this dress that made me look slim.. I loved it.. haha I bought it tooo!!

Sooo!! I was doing very good… I went from 67 to 57! THAT IS 10 KILOS… I forgot what was it like to be in the 50’s! Honestly.. it was soo long ago…

I was feeling so good… everyone has been giving me compliments ! and to tell you the truth that does feel really good, I know I am doing this for my self, but when you hear people telling you how good you look, it gives you more strength to continue!
I just came from a 10 day trip… and off course I ate sooooooo much!!!!!!

I gained two kilos! so Know I am at 59.5! which sucks.. but Instead of complaining and regretting it.. I am going to take this as a wake up call.. bc I was leaving my healthy eating aside, so I am going to go back to my old good healthy habits…
Honestly my ideal weight is just 55 kilos!!!

I just want to be 55 kilos, and tone my body!!! Right now I just want to loose the extra weight, and then I will be able to tone it! I want to do this before January.. so My goal is two months for, 4 kilos…

So here I am .. !!!!
:) Good luck to everyone!